was looking through the forum.... clicking on people.... stumbled onto a name i haf not seen yet always there... in my mind....

click on it n saw... ur face...

was juz thinking about u.... wif alvin on sunday...


hiaz... how time flies.... how long ago thing....


n guess wat.... i am still thinking about it....


n know wat.... the only thing that is stopping me from crying is.... mayb coz it is so long liao....




bloody hell... not now!!!!! get out!!!!!!



fuck lar.... u always make me cry one.......

lol....

got my ezlink n my 11b back... but... not my phone...
so how.... hiaz.... new phone.... hiaz...

at least got the cards.... very important...

but...


i still pmsing.....

grrrrhhhhh.....

i find that the only thing i can do is to blog...

i wanna save as much money as possible... so hoping to get some of my stuff back...

but... i need a phone... which i can borrow fm my kor... but then i need a sim card... which means i need cash... which means i need a atm card...

n since i lost my atm card, i need to go get a new one which means i need my ic....

but i also lost my ic....

so to do all these i first need my ic....

but to do that... i will need to report lost first.... n my mdn asked me not to first as there will b lots of crap coming up if i do so like write report.... then donno need to do extra or not... if need i sure KPKB one.... people lost phone wallet n need to pay to get a new card u still wanna give out punishment... stupid.... like u stupid people never made mistake b4.... *roll eyes*

anyway, found out my branch people are kinda homophobic.... coz well.... apprently two person kinda fall for someone in my branch n now... we got this.... donno wat.... sianz.....



i am hungry..... for half boiled eggs....

i got no money....




hiaz....

although i posted this song b4.... it totally show how i am feeling now....

Hey, if we can't find a way out of these problems
Then maybe we don't need this
Standing face to face
Enemies at war we build defences
And secret hiding places
I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's all right
I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I'm finding it hard to be your man

Hey, more than angry words I hate this silence
It's getting so loud
Well I want to scream
But bitterness has silenced these emotions
It's getting hard to breathe
So tell me isn't happiness
Worth more than a gold and diamond ring?
I'm willing to do anything
To calm the storm in my heart
I've never been the praying kind
But lately I've been down upon my knees
Not looking for a miracle
Just a reason to believe

I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's all right
I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I'm finding it hard to be your man

Do you remember not long ago?
When we used to live for the night-time
Cherish each moment
Now we don't live we exist
We just run through our lives
So alone
That's why you've got to hold me

Hey, if we can't find a way out of these problems
Then maybe we don't need this
Standing face to face
Enemies at war we build defences
And secret hiding places
I might need you to hold me tonight
I might need you to say it's all right
I might need you to make the first stand
Because tonight I'm finding it hard to be your man

eating a lot... like... lunch then a while later go canteen eat n now hungry... didn't eat snacks... ate noodles....

sometimes i talk too much... sometimes... not at all....


sometimes i donno wat i am doin.... sometimes juz do wat i would do subconsciously...

slppy but cannot slp... if not slp at wrong time....


time passes so slowly... don wish tml to come... wish today end fast....
wish tml come faster so that the week will go faster yet time moves like a crawl...


thought so some things never thought i would think about... again...


mayb it juz going back to crazy mode...

piss... i am....


yes.... very very piss....

i am piss/ angry/ disappointed/ sad/god-knows-wat else....


firstly.... why?

coz i lost my phone... my 11B (army ic/ green ic)... my atm card.... my ezlink card...
phone: no contacts... (cannot remember people's number)
11B: stupid ma fun thing
atm card: no money
ezlink: for those who knows me knows i love taking bus.... so it is gonna b hell for me....


n all these will take some time to do... @@%$#$%^&**()_




n all these aside....

been talking to some people online....
1st guy: very nice n all.... suddenly.... topic change... how to get a person high.... lol.... then change again.... "i am horny..." is that all u think about???? coz ended up with him getting nth n me... well i don think i wanna talk to him again....

2nd guy: piss me off.... wan my sms.... say i lost my phone ask y i didn't go get a new phone.... lol... expect me to remember his number "if i am sincere..." WATEVER.... u think i care? who do u think u r for me to remember ur number.... wanna chat n wat he asked?? r u sissy? wat u look like... wat is ur number.... wat is this thing about number....

is it that now that i got no number i am no longer in the game? well fine i don wanna b in the game.... lol....


piss....
donno tml can wake up or not.... but that will b the least of my worries....

11B: $ 50 bucks
ezlink: $ 20+
atm: $ 5 bucks
sim card: $ 25 bucks
phone: $100+


total: BROKE!!!! n it is not even new year yet!!!




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