well..... yesterday training was cool.... n i couldn't stand it.... it is juz too good to b true..... wat such intensitisy i can still run n jump about...... hahhaha..... not pain.... hehehe...!!! =P so happy......

well anyway, guess i don need to go to the gym liao.....

actually i was thinking how to start all ver again.... as in my life...... everyone was saying that.... how life sucks or how to repaly life..... i donno lar.... it is like since we can't change life y don we live with wat we haf n try to do wif wat we haf...... don really care if i can get back wif adrian..... hehe.... although i wan to, wish to, hope to..... but so wat..... in the first place it is my mistake..... so well if i can't haf him like tat lor..... hahhaa...... n also, no point thinkin of how life will be if i did or did not do something or anything...... hahahaa......

put it this way..... this is my life....... i wanna end it i will...... i wanna live i will..... i will do wat ever i wan to it....... n well... i donno...... i live for myself n my other half...... n no one else...... see who my other half is...... for now.... adrian.... hahaa..... u know i juz read somewhere that i let go of things i cannot have easily..... y am i still holding on to adrian..... hahaa..... guess coz he has my heart..... for now.... hopefully for long..... as long as forever....... hhehehhee....... well people in love...... man...... know how it feels..... out of love also felt that way.......

sometimes i wonder if people cannot move on, wat will happen..... now i knoe..... they juz get stuck there..... no movement..... nth....... how i know.... well coz i have not been moving for a year already..... n best is that i did not move due to well... i donno.... aft i enter this circle i changed a lot...... kinda get a little cold.... well i am.... very cold.... very very cold...... guess not much people notice how much i change coz many people who knows me now donno me last time.... n those we knows me last time we haf little contact..... o well... wat to do......

i think i can freely say this..... how many people actually knows me.... how many people knows me well??? hahaaha....... from wat i see..... i think that i don open up..... well that me for a long time....... should i open up?? don feel like man.... hahaha.... see how lar......

well nice day today... kinda lar..... hehee...... can't stand.... well later goin to cheer..... intenstive.... aaahhhhh still have not recover from tuesday...... die


i was thinkin for a long time.... well i may be ok now..... coz the thing is that i control myself.... n kinda press it down.... donno wat is gonna happen the next time something like that happen..... haha.... mayb i will really kill myself.... n cannot make it.... hahaha.....

y do i love killing myself so much...... hehe.....

well... reach home too late..... too tired liao.... sorry for not updating.... lazy lar....

anyway i realise something...... it is still there.... as in the depression thingy..... juz push down.... well until the next time..... hahha.... wish me luck man.... hope don haf to see a donno wat his name is ..... hahaha....

lalalala...... latest update.... cheerleading now going for intensive training from now till god knows when.....

going to a play now... all the way from 7 till 11.... ehhehe 7 11
hahaha....

will report when i got home... which is aft 12..... =(

watever.... hehehe

iI didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
And I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory

Chorus:
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
But I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me

I don't want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been

Chorus

suddenly feel like listening to this song.... kinda remind me of someone.... hehehe...... donno lar.... nowadays like kinda..... happy.... cloud 9..... hehehe.... how??? donno lor..... hehhehe hiaz.... realise that my emotions now more or less stable..... for now i think.... hahha.....

well... a long day have past again.... well sch lar.... today was so cool... heehe.... went out to far east to makan breakfast.... hehhe.... broke so haf to draw money.... so little money left.... mummy will killl me liao... heheh... anyway, kinda spoted someone lookin at me.... as usual.... hehehe.. donno y.... watever.... hehehe.... well i haf got enough guys on my hands n they r really full.... hehhe... well anyway, so aft that went to mrt station to do my bus pass....damn lar.... long queue or u know wat??? tourist asking for direction..... n i was like -_-" well so coz of that it was quite fast.... hehehe....

well... now today i broken yet another record..... hehhee.... i finish work so fast.... hehehe.... lol... i am good man.... hehe...

anyway, there are somethings that may b hurting but i wanna say..... to those people out there.... kinda still disturbing me....... not really disturbing lar…. But just that I wanna u guys to well….. I donno lar…. When I say no…. I mean no…. I am for only one person…. One n only one…. N when I say no, there is no way we can be together….. if u don understand then I donno wat to say liao….

Leave me alone
Stop calling me at home
Where did you get my number anyway?

Don't write me e-mails
Don't knock on my door
Don't you remember you didn't love me no more?

Now it's over
It's nothing called you and me
It's over
Oh why can't you see?
What I'm trying to say is
Get out of my way
Yeah, it's over
It's nothing called you and me
It's over
Oh why can't you see?
What I'm trying to say is
Get out of my way!

I'm not your girl
Not even your friend
What makes you think I wanna try again

Don't buy me roses
Don't even try
And remember, big boys they don't cry

Now it's over
It's nothing called you and me
It's over
Oh why can't you see?
What I'm trying to say is
Get out of my way
Yeah, it's over
It's nothing called you and me
It's over
Oh why can't you see?
What I'm trying to say is
Get out of my way!

I'm tired of hearing my friends say
That you still care
That you wanna come back into my life
Well, I just want you out of there

Now it's over
It's nothing called you and me
It's over
Oh why can't you see?
What I'm trying to say is
Get out of my way
Yeah, it's over
It's nothing called you and me
It's over
Oh why can't you see?
What I'm trying to say is
Get out of my way!

Well…. I feel so mean… hiaz.. wat to do…. Lets juz say lar….. either Adrian or no one….. at least I know that the one for me is not here yet…. Kinda wanna tell u guys this as well….. you may give me wat I wan, but I am unable to give u wat u wan…. N that is the case….. it is a two way thing…. I may b super passive or something like tt…. But no matter wat, I will not n do not wanna juz receive… I wanna give as well… but it muz be something that I can give…. N well… that y I don wanna go into a relationship and also coz of that I cannot b in a relationship…. Sorry people….. but that is the case….. don force me…. U know who u r who is forcing me….. told u a lot of time liao…. Hiaz…. Wat can I do….

Sometimes I think that well…. Now so many people likes me later next time no one will….. hehe.. well I think if that is the case so be it… so wat if I cannot find a bf…. So wat if there will be no true love for me…. So wat…. No matter wat I have myself and my frens…. That all I care bout…. Hehe… my frens all of u…. love ya!! Heheh…. Thank you for being here for me…. Thank you so much….. and wanna let u guys know how thankful I am to have known u all….. hehehe…..

ok.... problem number 1.... i think that me n adrian will not so called last.... think if we got back together he will break up wif me.... well he will b the one..... so sould i go into a relationship???? well kinda trust me.... if he say yes i will no matter wat others say.....

next if he says yes then wif my timetable now..... we will have very little time together..... so how??? wat if histroy repeats itself??? well i don wanna hurt him anymore.... or rather again..... but speaking from how i know myself i will go back to him......


so no matter wat i will go back to him..... well so now can only wait n see how.... once he say yes ok i will go back to him.....

hehehe..... the thought of it makes me so excited.... n happy...... hehehehe

o n today's rj question..... if u wanna know more bout PBL read this

"I received a letter recently from an intern at one of our universities. She related how each of her professors had provided the students with a semester's worth of lecture notes on the first day, and spent much of the next four months reading them out.

Hardly any questions were asked during lectures. Discussion sessions were not very different. Other Singaporean students have given similar feedback.

It is not a problem that is unique to any one university or to Singapore. Students tell us it does not start with the universities. Model answers are handed out routinely in our junior colleges.

Our system is still better than most, and it is to the credit of our teachers and students that they work hard and master something while in school.

But we have to evolve, and find ways of encouraging more interaction in class and less passive learning."

The excerpt above was obtained from an interview with our current Minister of Education. Reflect critically on the importance of model answers or complete and intact lecture notes/6th presentations.
The problem mainly lies on the fact that we do not participate in class and thus there is no discussions and interaction. Not only that, the lecture notes given out are what will be covered. And the problem with this is that students already know what they will need to learn and thus there is no need to come to lesson as well since at the beginning of the semester or the beginning of the lesson. Thus all they need to know have been “spoon feed” to them already. This is a very bad way as all students need to do is just memorize the whole chunk of work and there is nothing really known to them. However, here at RP, we students find out information ourselves and thus we are more likely to remember or know what we found out and what we are looking for. The 6th presentation is only a guideline where we see if we managed to cover all that we have to cover and know. Thus it is an important part of RP live. This is almost as good as the lecture notes which were given. As a matter of fact, it is like the lecture notes beside the fact that part of it is already found out by us.
The way RP “teaches” is by not teaching at all. By finding out information ourselves, we know what we are looking for and also show us how much we understand the particular topic. Unlike the other schools who teaches what is in the book, RP notes comes from the student themselves. However there are times when the students really do not know what is written and what is needed to solve the day’s problem. This is where the facilitators come in and help them. Sometimes at the end of the day then the student realize their mistake. This may be a good thing as they will know how to handle such things when they happen again. However, for the rest of the students who are not using what RP is using they will not know if what they have been doing right or wrong and so they cannot really understand what they are doing. In RP, at the end of the day you will know what u see or understand is true or you have been mislead by the net resources you have found. This is almost like killing two birds with one stone.
However, it would be good that we can combine both together. Who would not want the best of both worlds?

friday, nth much happen.... juz well like that lor... very sian

saturday better, slp till bout 1 puls 2 then cook n eat. then get ready to go out.... meeting at parkway with the ycs people.... well.... nice.... hehehe... then waited for kenneth then went to the outing together. met simon n then we go to the outing together..... like tt lor....
the outing ok lar.... kinda nice coz well tok to more people.... n then so many things happen.... like there is this waiter who looks kinda cute to many people..... but to me seems like normal lor..... anyway donno wat they did lar.... then some how got his number.... n then found that he is not aj.. lol.... they think that he is faking n i was like..... watever..... then saw perier png n donno how to spell her name.... hehehe.... now we know y she take slim 10 even though she is so SLIM.... well SKINNY more like it..... coz she eats at nydc.... lol.....

clubbing after that..... met up wif alvin, chris, kel n a few of chris frens.... toshi also wif me.... then hor went clubbing lar.... went to tabs first n then wb..... well dance halfway went out wif kel to draw money.... went went went the saw this taois thingy goin on... so went to "pray" haha... did nth much.... then u know that shake shake then got stick come out one??? hahah.... did that.... then i reaise that wat it said is kinda wat i know n expect.... or is it tat juz part of me who knows things b4 it happen... o well.... this juz comfirm wat i know only....

went back n well another expected thing happen..... saw adrian...... as in ADRIAN...... as in MY ADRIAN!!!!!!!! ahhahahaa so happy!!!! o m g!!!!! so happy...... so well... i asked him if there is still a chance we get back together n well he did not tell me but..... hehehe.... juz happy.....

reach home at 4 plus then left at 7 for mass.....
so slppy....

coz got cheerleading competetion....... wow.... damn nice....... especially the thai one!!!! the thais r so cute n goodlooking!!!!! omg!!!!! so nice!!!!!!! yupppy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

n magnum won again.... expected... but they r really good.... hahaha..... should haf gone to ngee ann poly hahaha......

well then met my parents for dinner... like tt lar... damn tired..... o n come back home hor took 133... droping that time this guy cut in front of me when we r coming down from the upper deck.... then so piss.... coz he did not wanna alight.... juz wanna go down n i wanna alight.... n he is like..... go down so slow..... n i was like wat the..... so reach the ground then he move in so the bus driver cclose the door.... n i was like.... fuck.... wanna press the bell but no hands to press...... then my sis came n said loudly "wat happen huh??" so i replied " some poeple couldn't wait to get off the bus lor!!!" n stare at that guy.... fat ass...... watever man.....

well so like tt lar.... make me so angry.... luckily did not curse him man......