Friday, August 20, 2004
11:32 AM
school finish quite early yesterday... actually bout.... 12 finish liao.... then waited till bout 3 plus to go to gym.... enjoyed myself as usual.... hahaha.....
well... i really donno wat is goin on now... lol... i hate this... both people givin me wat i need.... one providing wat the other don't... can i haf both??? hehehe..... not in open relationship.... don wan... but then... hiaz....
i think n hope that this will end at the time when dar dar finish n done wif watever is keepin him fm spending time wif me.... if not..... hiaz.....
don promise me too much.... coz if u can't fulfill, don blame me for being sad.............
well... i really donno wat is goin on now... lol... i hate this... both people givin me wat i need.... one providing wat the other don't... can i haf both??? hehehe..... not in open relationship.... don wan... but then... hiaz....
i think n hope that this will end at the time when dar dar finish n done wif watever is keepin him fm spending time wif me.... if not..... hiaz.....
don promise me too much.... coz if u can't fulfill, don blame me for being sad.............
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Thursday, August 19, 2004
2:04 PM
ok... now this is funny.... ok... i think i haf fallen for two person... lol....
will not say more.....
juz that....
well... i donno wat to say....
people... don tell me anything.... unless u go by the name virgil... u all know how stubborn i am.... will not listen to anyone of u...
lol............
gad, i hate my life........
will not say more.....
juz that....
well... i donno wat to say....
people... don tell me anything.... unless u go by the name virgil... u all know how stubborn i am.... will not listen to anyone of u...
lol............
gad, i hate my life........
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Wednesday, August 18, 2004
1:25 PM
feelings are really going crazy now...... too many things in my mind man.... lol.... can't think straight..... hahha.... man... this is funny.... coz finally got someone else beside dar dar who can do this to me... lol.... wat the heck is happening.... y is it that i know... yet don wanna accept it?? o damn... sob sob.....
is there a day when i don haf to think of others n juz love or like one person??? hiaz...... don even know wat is goin on in my head... in my mind.... hiaz.......
confusion is coming in.... i know wat to do.... but y do i not wanna do it?? o man...
i know there is no such thing... but y... y do i feel like it?? lol... almost like i like two person at the same time.... sob sob.... hiaz.... wat to do wat to do.....
No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore
Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow show
Yes it shows
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't liveI can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore
is there a day when i don haf to think of others n juz love or like one person??? hiaz...... don even know wat is goin on in my head... in my mind.... hiaz.......
confusion is coming in.... i know wat to do.... but y do i not wanna do it?? o man...
i know there is no such thing... but y... y do i feel like it?? lol... almost like i like two person at the same time.... sob sob.... hiaz.... wat to do wat to do.....
No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore
Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow show
Yes it shows
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't liveI can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore
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10:52 AM
now.... how to say this.... man... i feel that.... ok...
well yesterday was kinda.... cool i think.... ok... well... sch's fine... suppose to go for training but then sms n found that i don need to go... lol... nv tell me again.... damn.... aft that went out to shop wif eric... he actually wanna buy something but did not... n i brought something for two person.... my new kor... n dar dar 4 his birthday.... hehehe.... saw so many things.... lol... brought quite a lot too i think....
then was like smsing.... kinda... erm... realise something.... n well... more like confirm something.... which i donno... is not wat i expected.... n all i hope for is that for this thing not to blow too big or else lots of people is gonna get hurt.... lol.... o man.... need to trust my instint more liao.... sob sob.....
...
i didn't expect things to turn out this way.... i guess i should haf known... i am sorry... hope that we will not go to the point of no return.... sorry for all the trouble that i caused...
i hate it when such things happen to me.... sob sob sob....
well yesterday was kinda.... cool i think.... ok... well... sch's fine... suppose to go for training but then sms n found that i don need to go... lol... nv tell me again.... damn.... aft that went out to shop wif eric... he actually wanna buy something but did not... n i brought something for two person.... my new kor... n dar dar 4 his birthday.... hehehe.... saw so many things.... lol... brought quite a lot too i think....
then was like smsing.... kinda... erm... realise something.... n well... more like confirm something.... which i donno... is not wat i expected.... n all i hope for is that for this thing not to blow too big or else lots of people is gonna get hurt.... lol.... o man.... need to trust my instint more liao.... sob sob.....
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i didn't expect things to turn out this way.... i guess i should haf known... i am sorry... hope that we will not go to the point of no return.... sorry for all the trouble that i caused...
i hate it when such things happen to me.... sob sob sob....
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10:40 AM
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Tuesday, August 17, 2004
11:18 AM
i donno how to update man.... this is like... so... stupid....
friday... well... happy happy then sad sad... coz u turn me down.... again
saturday... don really care.... haf too much to do n think bout...
sunday... coundn't believe u asked me that... y do u wanna let me go so easily?? when u, aft such difficulty, got me... y???
monday... donno... miss u... yet...
thought u really can meet me... but i donno... kinda get used to it liao... i think... kinda like... ok lor... cannot meet then cannot meet liao lor...
i really donno wat is goin on... it is not him that made me like that.... it is you... y y u actually see me as something that can be let go... how n y is it that u even think of letting me go b4 u solve anything... r u really that bo chap?? u really really don care if i am wif u or not is it??? hiaz...
i am not goin to let watever i haf built up b gone to waste ok... i will not let u go...
friday... well... happy happy then sad sad... coz u turn me down.... again
saturday... don really care.... haf too much to do n think bout...
sunday... coundn't believe u asked me that... y do u wanna let me go so easily?? when u, aft such difficulty, got me... y???
monday... donno... miss u... yet...
thought u really can meet me... but i donno... kinda get used to it liao... i think... kinda like... ok lor... cannot meet then cannot meet liao lor...
i really donno wat is goin on... it is not him that made me like that.... it is you... y y u actually see me as something that can be let go... how n y is it that u even think of letting me go b4 u solve anything... r u really that bo chap?? u really really don care if i am wif u or not is it??? hiaz...
i am not goin to let watever i haf built up b gone to waste ok... i will not let u go...
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