ok... it is over... done wif... no longer any hope of us getting into a relationship....

don ask me to wait or wat... coz one thing is we made it clear to each other liao... we can only be brothers....


good thing: i still got him... still can be wif him.... still can take care of him... juz... no relationship thingy involve... glad that at least it is like that....

bad thing: there isn't... not that i know of lar....

still feeling sad.... who isn't.... i let go of things that do not belong to me fast.... but still, there is a limit.... i cannot let go so fast... i still need more time.... so pardon me if i don feel like talkin......




now... anyone wanna date me?

suddenly.... it came....

well... physically... i can't b nasty or ignore him.... too hard for me.... n mentally... it still tough.... we still care for each other.... juz that we cannot b together... well... he made the decision.... i respect it.... we are still talking... n still frens.... but... cannot cross the line liao....

been doin a lot of thinking.... well... it may b bad, or anything.... but then... as long as i have him... i don see y i haf to b angry or watever bout him.... this is one of the concenquences that comes when u decided to go for someone.... n i don regret it.... i have given him my all... n it has been the most wonderful time of my life....

well that is physically... i feel i will b better if i cry.... coz i really can't do that.... i donno y.... well... all i can n am doin now is to keep things under wrap.... still frens still frens... still frens....




god... i miss him.... =(

anyone wanna go drinking wif me?

woke up found that i got quite a number of sms.... 2 actually.... 1 fm wes... the other fm him... telling me that he goin to sch liao... one of the very few times he sms me....

then he msg me n asked if i am ok... ya.. i am...

woke up aft that bout 12 plus n help my mummy.... then she ask me go office so i ok lor.... go lor...

sms.... but... donno wat to do... trying to keep it small n simple... told me he is feeling sick n... got worried as usual... donno how to react... he got to take care of himself.... i can't do much....

said that i am kinda cold... sorry... i donno wat to feel or say....

pls take care of urself....

surprise that i am still awake? well i am not... don't think i can slp tonight....

anyway, info all... me n him are no long together... not dating not attached.... no.... we broke up... if u consider that break up....

reasons will not b stated... n pls... don ask...

i am fine... will b fine... if i need help i will find you... pls don bug me....

actually was thinking of doin some nice update... coz really had quiet a great time... but then.... hiaz....


honestly speaking.... i guess i am still shock.... saw that coming... but still shock....

well... drama is cool... it is great... but then... still haf not remember lines... got to buck up... hiaz.... hope i can put up a good show....

o god... nth to post about... but got to post... not slppy... considering the fact that i have been slppin very late n waking up very early...

been watching my date with a vampire 3.... kinda nice... haha.... n lame too.... there is this nice show... chrno crusade.... should go watch....

o ya... today's UT.... damn sickening.... was late... then they cut my time.... last question not done.... piss....

ok guess i will try to slp now... hope can.... over n out....

well... surprisingly... lots of things has been goin in my mind these days...

church today was great.... haha... coz i kinda.. got this... undescrible feeling.... donno how to explain... it is really a god present feeling....

homily by fr john was, as usual, funny... haha....


then went out... so it is like raining heavily... n a few things happened....

1. notice that a lot of people wif umbrella will walk so slowly in the rain.... n then when reach shelter will put the umbrella on the side.... n thus occupy all the sheltered space.... i mean... hello... u got umbrella... but others don.... so like give way lar.... lol.... then when knock then (which i accidently did... some stupid bitch blocking the way) they will give u that "hurry for wat" look... lol lor... really donno how to think one.... hiaz....

2. we always get to see mini water-fall.... where? everywhere in singapore!!!! as long as there is a stairway... there is water fall..... lol... can the government do something bout it? n it gets people shoes all wet!!! lol.... some times.... i wonder who design all these stuff....

3. now we all know y women loves high heels n platform shoes.... coz keep their feet dry.... with all the flooding everyday, do u think people will still wear falt shoes??? lol.... who design singapore anyway.... lol....

4. construction here, construction there... n wat happens when it rains? the water turns orange.... the colour of the soil.... lol... chock the drainage only.... hiaz... wat to do.... something muz b building everyday everytime anyway.... hmmm.... now if redhill is red.... does that means when it rains the water will turn red???? food for thought......

man... i so bitchy....