ok... here i go again.....

everyday after sch i will b goin to see my grandpa.... yesterday also the same..... hehehe....

then met my mummy there.... hehehe..... then haf dinner wif her n my uncle n aunt.... well... i eat... A LOT!!!!!..... boy.... o wait a min.... i always eat a lot.... oops... hehehe.....

anyway they were talkin bout their old frens.... then keep saying this n this still look like last time..... n i was like.... pls.... hope that i also look like last time.... i mean..... i look like this since pr 2 liao wat..... as told to me by my p2 teacher..... hehehe.... oops.....

o n i cut my hair on monday..... till super short..... n kno wat??? MY FRENS SAY I LOOK LIKE A SMALL BOY!!!!! damn.... i think i cut too short liao.....

tml goin back to sec school.... wif michelle.... catching up wif old stuff... hehehhe....





Here I go again I promised myself I wouldn't think of you today
It's been seven months and counting
You've moved on
I still feel exactly the dameIt's just that everywhere I go all the buildings know you name
Like photographs and memories of love
Steel and granite reminders
The city calls your name and I can't move on

Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
The lover after me

Am I all alone in the universe?
There's no love on these streets
I have given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway
So this is my new freedom
It's funny
I don't remember being chained
But nothing seems to make sense anymore

Without you I'm always twenty minutes late

Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
The lover after me

And time goes by so slowly
The nights are cold lonely
I shouldn't be holding on
But I'm sill holding on for you

Here I go again
I promised myself I wouldn't think of you today
But I'm standing at your doorway
I'm calling out your name because I can't move on

Ever since you've been gone
The lights go out the same
The only difference is
You call another name
To your love
To your lover now
The lover after me

N THIS IS TO ALL MY FRENS!!!!

c'mon c'mon best friend

we all need a best friend a best friend

i remember when we was young
playing pool after school keeping it cool
people say we were the troublesome two
i know the girls like me and you
i can never forget the times you've covered my back
you helped me out and cut me slack
there was nothin' you'd never do
it's all about me and you

you're my brother you're my sister
we'll stick together
no matter what no matter what

best friend never gonna let you down
best friend always gonna be around
you know whatever life puts you through
i'll be there for you
we all need a best friend to understand
a best friend to take your hand
you know whatever life puts you through
i'll be there for you

you remember the days when we would
kick back lay back
we'd be chillin' with the ladies
those times were the greatest
so don't worry about a thing my friend
cos you can count on me thick and thin
cos i'll be there right till the end till the end


N THIS IS FOR VIRGIL

I may run and hide
When you're screamin' my name, all right
But let me tell you now
There are prices to fame, all right
All of our time spent in flashes of light
CHORUS:
All you people can't you see, can't you see
How your love's affecting our reality
Every time we're down
You can make it right
And that makes you larger than life

Looking at the crowd
And I see your body sway, c'mon
Wishin' I could thank you in a different way, c'mon
'Cause all of your time spent keeps us alive

Repeat chorus

All of your time spent keeps us alive

Repeat chorus

Yeah, every time we're down
Yeah, you can make it right
Yeah, and that's what makes you larger than life

Repeat chorus

DAR DAR.... THIS IS FOR U

My gift is my song
And this one's for you
And you can tell everybody
That this is your song
It maybe quite simple
But now that it's done
Hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

Sat on the roof
And I kicked off the moss
Well some of the verses well
They got me quite cross
But the sun's been kind
While I wrote this song
It's for people like you that
Keep it turned on

So excuse me for forgetting
But these things I do
You see I've forgotten
If they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

(Allesandro- opera)

And you can tell everybody
This is your song
It may be quite simple
But now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words

How wonderful life is now you're in the world
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

monday went to see grandpa at nite.... coz fr. kk coming to administer the last rite again.... well the good news is that we went to haf jap food for dinner and that my grandpa is better yesterday.... so it is like... well... ok lar.... wen to see him.... don feel like goin sia..... juz sitting there.... it is enough... well got to go for training though.... so... left....

okok... then we change the routine.... n i realise that i forgot the dance.... again.... shit... hhhehehe..... so well sunday performaning... tml will not b goin 4 the match.... coz wanna go n see him..... ok... so that all... wish me luck.....

lab today... sian.... extract DNA..... donno wat is goin on... late for lesson....

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I heard he fall sick. I felt so sad. I felt like going to take care of him. But I have to be strong. I know I have to. No sms to him, no phone call. But having friends to update me on his happening, I felt that I might just die right then. It is just a simple flu. But then it blown to an infection. And the next I know it has becomes so deadly that he is in the ICU. Man, how did this happen. And when it all seems like things cannot be worst, his lungs fail. And man, even if he recovers, he will not live long. All I can do is stay there. Yet can’t talk to him. I have given up going for any chemo, taking any medication. But soon, he left. Peacefully. But the look on his face, there is no smile, no trace of him. Just a face. I realize that when I broke up with him, he died already. Life don’t seem to go on anymore. Now I know how he felt. How could you be so stupid? O my dearest… all I did was so that you could live longer, but it seems that it is the other way round. O man, I am so sorry dear, so sorry. But don’t worry, I will join you soon. I promise I will. Please wait for me. I am going with you…

The days that we had, how can I forget.
Time spent well, wasted none let
Years seems short, now that you’re here
And times are short, all seems soon
Yet day 1095, I remembered clear
You said goodbye, and left me here
Sorry I can’t be, the one for you
Though for me you are, for me you do
So let you go, I think I will
But none too soon, and none we will
Fall fall I fell, neverending
Into darkness I go, and light can’t see
Cause your face is the light, and only I know
So now with you gone, I know it now
So gone my life, it is as known
I am gone now, I know
It seems you don’t care, bout me right now
Don’t care where, don’t care what
Don’t think I wanna, know where now
Death a solution, death an end
But for me, nothing’s done
Nothing matters, anymore
Coz you are gone, my love my all

friday
no sch also.... went to potong pasir to get daddy's medicence.... then also visit my babysitter.... well... when i was a kid lar.... they take care of me..... still got contact wif them.... hehee... well they were so happy to see me sia.... n although i juz had breakfast they still asked me to eat.... man... n say i haf gotten skinner..... so muz eat more.... wait till they see how much i eat man.... hehee.....

anyway, aft that went to mummmy there.... then work till bout 5 plus go jalan bersar stadium... got match... lions against japan... n we won... hehehe.... so happy!!!.... then went to meet up wif eric they all to celebrate eric's birthday.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC!!!!! hope u haf a nice 17 n all the best sia..... hehehe.....

anyway, lost a lot of energy trying to heal da kor.... but he is better so... hehehe..... o man.... i too tall liao... keep on knocking my head..... hehehe...... sian.....

o then went to merlion park.... nice moon sia.... told kor bout dar.... finally got it off my chest.... it is ok in a sense that it is a problem which muz b settle btn us n i haf done it... so alrite liao.... hehehe.....

then me n da kor went back first.... coz too tired.... n thank god we left coz they stayed till the next day sia.... dar dar would kill me if i did.....

saturday
woke up, go to office n help daddy, went home.... that bout it.... boring.... n then... well at nite went out for dinner wif dar dar.... miss him so much sia.....

see at first seeing dar dar on sunday (as usual) then, mummy called n told me that i haf to go see my grandpa n celebrate his birthday.... i was like.... I WAN MY DAR DAR.... but i knew i haf to go.... well... then, dar dar also asked me to go so wat can i do....

then went dinner wif dar dar..... hehee.... so cool!!!.... so happy.... n then went to sit sit n talk talk..... here is wat we talk bout.....
well... i was juz sayin... that i miss him a lot.... well he can't help it... he got to work... yup i know.... that y i am not angry wif him.... juz u can't stop me from missing him rite??? hehehe.... so this is my own part.... then he was like saying that it is also better not to meet each other so much.... coz the more we meet the more we get sick of each other..... n i was like.... no... not like that.... i think it is like.... we don get sick of each other.... we got to get used to each other... so much that we will like.... be wif each other... can do without each other.... but cannot not haf each other.... understand???/ heheheh..... well i do... thanks to uncle darius.... hehee..... tok to him helps a lot... hehee....

well... then went home... though i did not wanna... then slp... bout 11 plus.... ehhehehe.....

sunday
well... morning go church.... sian.... hahaha.... i am so.... so like.... well.... bored.... donno y lar.... juz feel "destructive"... then aft mass went to eat.... then virgil then tell me that........... THEY GOIN SENTOSA!!!!!! damn..... without me....

well then... i felt that i should juz stay with my plan.... coz well... wat happen was that we went to the hospital... celebrate my grandpa's birthday.... this may b the last i guess..... well.... hopefully not.... but muz prepare for the worst...........
haha.... then, went to my aunt house.... suppose to b an family gethering.... but guess the hospital mood killed every one's mood.... well i went though.....

then went home lor.... hiaz..... my grandpa sia.....