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Friday, October 14, 2005

9:26 PM

hiaz

lost the game... coz too lagging....

hungry again.... but nth to eat....

slppy.... but cannot fall aslp....

hiaz.... wat a lonely nite....

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7:59 PM

lonely

parents not home yet.....

bro went out... most likely meeting his gf or in church.....

younger sis went out.... go church....

elder sis went out.... most likely meeting her bf i guess....

all alone at home....

when don feel good.... best thing is to slp....

but.... not when the toilet is your bedroom....

went to the toilet for.... 5 times?

shit out liquid.... all liquid...

stomach not pain.... not aching....

feeling a little lonely....

feeling lonely....

no.... feeling really lonely....

believed that when don feel good..... should slp.... but.... cannot slp....

cannot fall aslp....

most likely will b dotaing... alone....

go sch alone....

go home alone.....

sit on the bus alone....

walk to school alone.....

now... home alone....

lonely...........

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6:30 PM

songs for you II

Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good

[Chorus:]

Shine your light now
This time it's gotta be good
You get it right now
'Cause you're in Hollywood

There's something in the air in Hollywood
The sun is shining like you knew it would
You're ridin' in your car in Hollywood
You got the top down and it feels so good

I lost my memory in Hollywood
I've had a million visions, bad and good
There's something in the air in Hollywood
I tried to leave it but I never could

[chorus]

There's something in the air in Hollywood
I've lost my reputation, bad and good
You're ridin' in your car in Hollywood
You got the top down and it feels so good

Music stations always play the same songs
I'm bored with the concept of right and wrong

Everybody comes to Hollywood
They wanna make it in the neighborhood
They like the smell of it in Hollywood
How could it hurt you when it looks so good

[chorus]

'Cause you're in Hollywood
'Cause you're in Hollywood
In Hollywood [repeat three times]

Check it out, this bird has flown

[chorus]

'Cause you're in Hollywood
'Cause you're in Hollywood
In Hollywood [repeat three times]

Push the button
Don't push the button
Trip the station
Change the channel
[repeat twice]

Strike a pose
Strike a pose
Vogue, vogue, vogue
Vogue, vogue, vogue

Look around everywhere you turn is heartache
It's everywhere that you go [look around]
You try everything you can to escape
The pain of life that you know [life that you know]

When all else fails and you long to be
Something better than you are today
I know a place where you can get away
It's called a dance floor, and here's what it's for, so

Chorus:

Come on, vogue
Let your body move to the music [move to the music]
Hey, hey, hey
Come on, vogue
Let your body go with the flow [go with the flow]
You know you can do it

All you need is your own imagination
So use it that's what it's for [that's what it's for]
Go inside, for your finest inspiration
Your dreams will open the door [open up the door]

It makes no difference if you're black or white
If you're a boy or a girl
If the music's pumping it will give you new life
You're a superstar, yes, that's what you are, you know it

(chorus, substituting "groove" for "move")
Beauty's where you find it
Not just where you bump and grind it
Soul is in the musical
That's where i feel so beautiful
Magical, life's a ball
So get up on the dance floor

(chorus)

Vogue, [vogue]
Beauty's where you find it [move to the music]
Vogue, [vogue]
Beauty's where you find it [go with the flow]

Greta garbo, and monroe
Deitrich and dimaggio
Marlon brando, jimmy dean
On the cover of a magazine

Grace kelly; harlow, jean
Picture of a beauty queen
Gene kelly, fred astaire
Ginger rogers, dance on air

They had style, they had grace
Rita hayworth gave good face
Lauren, katherine, lana too
Bette davis, we love you

Ladies with an attitude
Fellows that were in the mood
Don't just stand there, let's get to it
Strike a pose, there's nothing to it

Vogue, vogue

Oooh, you've got to
Let your body move to the music
Oooh, you've got to just
Let your body go with the flow
Oooh, you've got to
Vogue

Take a bow, the night is over
This masquerade is getting older
Light are low, the curtains down
There's no one here
[there's no one here, there's no one in the crowd]
Say your lines but do you feel them
Do you mean what you say when there's no one around [no one around]
Watching you, watching me, one lonely star
[one lonely star you don't know who you are]

Chorus:

I've always been in love with you [always with you]
I guess you've always known it's true [you know it's true]
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye

Make them laugh, it comes so easy
When you get to the part
Where you're breaking my heart [breaking my heart]
Hide behind your smile, all the world loves a clown
[just make 'em smile the whole world loves a clown]

Wish you well, i cannot stay
You deserve an award for the role that you played [role that you played]
No more masquerade, you're one lonely star
[one lonely star and you don't know who you are]

(chorus, repeat)

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye

All the world is a stage [world is a stage]
And everyone has their part [has their part]
But how was i to know which way the story'd go
How was i to know you'd break
[you'd break, you'd break, you'd break]
You'd break my heart

I've always been in love with you
[i've always been in love with you]
Guess you've always known
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

(chorus)

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye
Say good-bye

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Thursday, October 13, 2005

11:16 PM

me!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

The Hidden Meaning in Names

samuel soon yeong haw

Reevaluating
The inner life
Solitary
Loner
Mystical
Deep
Philosophical
Analytical
Intuitive
Perfectionist
Specialization
Skeptical
Privacy
Retreat
Sanctuary
Contemplation
Recuperation
Eccentricity
Study or research

true?

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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

9:15 PM

songs for you I

bored.... so here goes....

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine ahead has caught my eye
And roped me in so mesmerizing
It's so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so
Isolated so
Motivated I am
Certain now that I am

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So tired of the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim
Against the current

So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away

Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

My hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

will post more of it when i remember~~

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12:14 AM

disappointed

am disappointed wif a couple of things and people this few days....

firstly... my clincal trial faci... hiaz... she damn bad lor.... even first week also don give chance.... so first week of school, did not get any As at all... sad....

and coz of that... i kinda don feel like doing much or my best any more... hiaz... it is like... no motivation.... too disappointing...

then... RJ till now still not done.. hiaz....

worst still....

well... for those who donno, i was attached a while back.... ya...

but... guess things did not turn out well....

i mean... i always say this... there is not such thing as rules n guidelines to follow... but... i guess he did... n well... look where we ended.... no msg if i don msg.... no calls... waiting for me to call... cannot stand....

n am kinda sick of "taking" care of him.... i also wan someone who can shower love on me... not juz me on him.... hiaz....

anyway... i guess we are not together any more....

disappointing....

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Monday, October 10, 2005

7:17 PM

Dreams

Now here we go again
You say you want your freedom
Well who I am to keep you down
It's only right that you should
Play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound
Of your loneliness
Like a heartbeat...drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost
And what you had
And what you lost

[Chorus]
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say women they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know

Now here I go again, I see the crystal visions
I keep my visions to myself
It's only me
Who wants to wrap around your dreams and
Have you any dreams you'd like to sell?
Dreams of loneliness
Like a heartbeat...drives you mad
In the stillness of remembering what you had
And what you lost
What you had
And what you lost

[Chorus]
Thunder only happens when it's raining
Players only love you when they're playing
Say women they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean, you'll know

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