o m g!!! o m g!!! o m g!!!

did 100 push ups, sits ups and crunches today... not all add together 100... but 100 each!!! wow!!! hehe.... didn't know i can do so much.... hehe..... n wat more... train for 6 hours sia... from 4 to 10.... hehe....

then super tired.... went to haf dinner wif wes... my dinner was at 12 plus.... counldn't believe how much i ate... lol....

anyway, damn tired... goin to slp.... n he sms me so much today.... hehe... so happy...


awww... if only everyday like today..... *dream...*

well... someone commented that my blog cannot be read easily... so i change it to this... so no more jack jack....



since last nite... sms him... no reply.... sent 3 smses liao.... donno wat happen..... something happen rite?? can tell rite... he angry wif me is it?? i donno... really donno....

realise something..... my life... is like.... i donno... i will tell myself that the person don mean to hurt me... n then tell myself it is ok when it is not... reality... i donno wat that.... donno wat is real... what is it that i dream of about him.... wat he is... n i have this percepition of him liao.... i donno if it is ok, it is not the real one or wat... n then when he is not who i hope or think that he is i will get very sad.... then i will tell myself that he don mean to do that... n that he is ok n fine.... n that it is my fault.... n i will b alright.... but then.... one thing for sure.... the whole process will begin again.... n again.... n again....


miss him....

now can't stop listening to The Reason.... n thinking of him.... hiaz....

miss u.... it isn't the same in class.... never the same.....

so many things went wrong today... hiaz....

i'm not a prefect person
i never meant to do those things to u.....

i found the reason to change who i used to be..... n the reason is u.....

ok... wanna say my dream first....

anyway, last nite, dreamt that in sch, today, then meetin him aft sch... n the best thing is that i was alone in class n updating my blog.... was saying how much i love him n stuff n i actually fall asleep.... then he sms me n call me but i did not wake up... so he came to class n find me... n read my blog.... n saw wat i written... n.... the rest is history.... hehe....



if only.... hiaz....



anyway, today's lesson... stress.... hiaz....
rj's cool though...
Comment critically from your experiences the truth of the 1st 13 laws stated in the following websites: (a) The 13 laws (http://dmawww.epfl.ch/roso.mosaic/dm/murphy.html);
(b) The origin of the laws(http://www.edwards.af.mil/history/docs_html/tidbits/murphy's_law.html).


hehe.... anyway, did cheer me up a little... but then... hiaz....
miss him... donno later can we go n eat or not.... class was bad... very bad.... so if cannot, i understand... hiaz....


realise something.... all this while.... i am hinting... not yet tell him.... how ar... hiaz... don dare to tell him... from what he said, seems like he don wanna get into a relationship.... that y i never say anything.... hiaz....

training's cool.... great even.... getting heavier i hope...


damn i donno wat to update for my blog.... hiaz.... can't think of anything but him.....

KYYL!!!! y can't u understand that i really wanna do things for u... don u know.... it is coz.... i love u..... n y can't u allow it... hiaz...