for those who are in HIMB, who knows her... pls shut up.... i don wanna b a big mouth to say personal stuff... but this is my blog... so don let her know...


her refers to karen leong... my ex gf from secondary sch... the one i chased since sec 1 to sec 5... yup....

so all along... i thought it was kinda... a one sided.... but... that conversation prove other wise...

if u haf told me earlier... would we haf been together?

if i haf known earlier.... would i b where i am now?

if we are together... would i even like guys in the first place....


interesting


i know i woun't be able to tell u all that i wanna say... but....

1. it is ok that u hurt me.... coz... when in love there is hurt.... it is ok.... i already forgotten bout it...

2. u r still in my heart... all those that i loved.... but... ur place has been taken over by a few people.... i am sorry....

3. i guess it is now no longer a matter of u liking me.... the thing is.... when we split the last time... i expected it to be permarnent.... i guess i didn't know u r still waiting....

4. all this time when we gone out... the way u treat me.... i thought it is that we are no longer together....

5. i do hope u r happy... well wif another guy.... someone who can take care of u.... pls.... don push people away already...

6. i only see u as a sister now... juz as how i see the rest of the gang... juz u r special....



by the way... i am more concern bout someone else.... thinking only of him.... so ya... guess in the end... it is me not keeping to our pact.... haha.....

i was the one who said our love will last through sec sch.... it did.... but... i drop it halfway... do i regret it? no i don think so... i am happy where i am now.... juz hope u r too....

all the best in ur future... n when u need me... i am juz a msn or sms away....


but... u r no longer the first...

blue: me
red: her
conversation: something i haf been asking myself for a long long time

								haha
								watch e video already?
								i hate to run...as in juz running n doing nothing.
								no la....not so easy la..haiz....project everyday in sch 10,12,3 break n lunch...
								haha
								no la....siao man..ppl 26yrs old leh.
								y not?
								XXX one is 31 or 32 lor
								peng~
								haha
								y not?
								nah...to say e truth, some 1 still in my heart. hahaha~ but though is impossible already. haha~
								o~~ who that lucky person?
								as times go by, see how bah...wait till i can find e 1 dat i (L)...
								good for u lor...
								yea lor...
								good luck i mean
								well... how come u say that impossible
								coz is impossible between me n him le.
								how come lar....
								there muz b a reason mah...
								if not nth is impossible...
								want to know who? hahaha~
								who who??
								do i know?
								haha
								yeap. look into the mirror.
								err....
								hahaha~ i've break his heart too much, times n times again. so is impossible le.
								lol... u joking ar...
								nope.
								haha.
								ok....
								i donno wat to say...
								hahaha~
								really....
								shocked...
								i didn't know....
								yeapp...but it's too late la. who ask me not to appreciate it when some1 luvs me that time. haha~ take things for granted. maybe dat time still young bah. hahha!
								don say that...
								watch the video already?
								not yet...
								still shock....
								go watch! nice~!
								okok...
								no la...get shock for what...hahaha~ it's so long ago already...5yrs ago only dat i dint appreciate it dat time.
								well... i liked u since sec 1... so it is like 8 yrs ago....
								hahaha~ but guess anyway now ur feeling has changed some how too. so many pretty ladies in ur sch. hahahaha!
								well....
								ok watch liao...
								haha...
								funny lar.. u wan me go ns soon is it