did something stupid... don i always do... to them all... mayb it will go away... mayb not....

don think i can slp at all tonite....

y am i so stupid...

hiaz....

this is only goin out to three people...

first... i am sorry... i am pretty affect by the two most important people in my life.... wait for 9 days.... that all i have to say to u.... don bother getting upset or wat...

next to the one... well... glad we end tonite at the tone... but then again... can't stop thinking of wat is to come.... hiaz.... nice dinner n all... but... i donno lar... sorry for making u angry in the car...

n thirdly.... my most treasured fren.... all i can say is sorry... i love u... i really do... sorry...

now as my interest moves from books to science to biology to human body to the male body to *ahem* males, i now have a new interest.... although i know i will get killed for going into this topic... it never fails to amaze me anyway....

now i haf been searching the webby and looking at some of prediction n stuffs like that... i would like to see how close they are to my own prediction n my own image of how the end of world would come.... hehe...

*and so i began...*

The Marian Movement of Priests issued a statement titled "Why Am I Still Weeping" on 1987-SEP-15. It allegedly quotes the Virgin Mary as saying: "Man is becoming ever more corrupt, Godless, wicked and cruel. A 'CHASTISEMENT' WORSE THAN 'THE FLOOD' is about to come upon this poor and perverted humanity. FIRE WILL DESCEND FROM HEAVEN, AND THIS WILL BE THE 'SIGN' that the 'Justice of God' has as of now fixed the hour of His great manifestation." Unfortunately, she did not offer a prediction of the date when this holocaust is to begin.
- kinda wat i have in mind

Daniel Dl-Maio believes that UFOs have been visiting Earth for all of the history of the world. They are piloted by intelligent beings who once created the biosphere that we inhabit. He believes that there are forces on Earth that are trying to create the fiction that we will soon be invaded by aliens. All of humanity will then focus on preparing to repel such an attack. But, in reality, the "invasion" will be Jesus and his army returning to save the world.
- wo~~ ET coming.... LOL!!! haha.....

Tyndale House Publishers have created the "Left Behind Prophecy Club." In early 2004-JAN, they noted five events in the year 2003 that they feel are "compelling signs of the End Times" in our near future:
Israel is constructing a 320 mile barrier to separate itself from Palestinian controlled land.
The removal of Saddam Hussein from power may result in the rebuilding of Babylon.
French President Jacques Chirac suggested that a "pioneer group" of nations within the European Union (EU) separate from the main EU group and progress towards a reunited Europe. This could be the ten kingdom prophesized in the book of Daniel.
By moving towards equal rights for everyone, they feel that the Episcopal Church (USA) is abandoning parts of the Bible. Apostasy was one of the defining characteristics of the end times, according to the Bible.
They feel that the election of Vladimir Putin and his party may lead to a rebuilding of Russia as a dominant player on the world scene, as is allegedly prophesied in Ezekiel.
- wat do these people have anything wif the end of the world???

The American Traditional Catholic Church predicts that "the three days of darkness" will envelop the earth shortly. As a warning sign, a cross will appear in the heavens so that all can see. The family and society will fall apart. "...the gates of Hell will be opened and satan and his demons shall be released and given authority to roam the earth without limitation. There will be complete darkness for three days. " It will be as if time has come to a stand still. The only source of light will be from candles blessed according to the traditional Rites of the Church Catholic."
- people take note of the bold part....

AgapePress reported that Bishop Huey Harris of the First Pentecostal Tabernacle in Elkton, MD 73-year-old said: "What I'm seeing is the Scriptures being fulfilled right before our very eyes." AgapePress reports: "He says what he is looking for next is for the Church to be raptured, and then Jews receiving Christ as their Messiah."
-*singing fly me to the moon* hahaa!!!

1998 to-2012 Gordon-Michael Scallion predicts major catastrophic earth events: global warming, melting polar ice caps, earthquakes, volcanoes erupting, etc.
- hasn't these been happening?? lol... u call that prediction??? "i predicted there will b volcanoes eruption in the next 10 years!!!" hahaha....

1999 to 2009: Jerry Falwell predicted in 1999-JAN that Jesus could return within ten years. But before that can happen, he said that the Antichrist must appear. Referring to the Antichrist, Falwell said: "Is he alive and here today? Probably. Because when he appears during the Tribulation period he will be a full-grown counterfeit of Christ. Of course he'll be Jewish. Of course he'll pretend to be Christ. And if in fact the Lord is coming soon, and he'll be an adult at the presentation of himself, he must be alive somewhere today." Rabbi James Rudin of the American Jewish Committee suggested that Christians should be careful about making such comments. His said that Falwell's statement "plays into some latent and historical anti-Semitism from the past."
- allow me to roll my eyes....

ok... i am really laughing out my ass here... hahaa.... alien aduction!!! n more... rapture!!! haha.... ok... well... i will try to find more the more likely will happen things....
anyway, the above is found in this webby...
http://www.religioustolerance.org/end_wrl1.htm

n guess wat... there is not fixed time yet to when the world will end... haha... coz... well... we all donno rite?? only god knows.... so don bother wif the calculations.... it is a random number....

god... i give up trying... haha... coz well... either they paint the picture of wat will happen... which is so wrong... or they put this.... some funny thing as the end of the world.... like war or something.... hahaa.... put it this way... if there is a world war III coming up i think something will cause the end of the world n the war.... not the war end the world....

well... now for samuel's one min. of fame prediction....
the first end of the world will be a time of darkness... the earth will be burning up and hellish monster/demon/devil/any other names creatures will appear on earth... people will be killed by them, if not by the monster.... there will be flood too and it will also be freezing cold... in fact, the end is not by global warming (fire) or snowstom like the day after tml (ice) or flood covering the whole earth (water)... but all three.... now don ask me how all three can get together... they will... coz it is the end of the world... n science will not play a part here... well... this is the erm... un-natureal end... as in if this happen, it will be a taking over by the dark side... kinda like... erm... the 7 yrs of rule by satan... not sure is it the begining.... BUT!!!! if this does not happen, (better start praying) then we will have the coming of god... well... that will be a less drama or less hellish end... which we should b looking forward to...

now all this are/maybe/might be/ could be juz my imagine/vision/prediction... it could/may/might be true... who knows rite?? i mean... up till now got so many people made so many non-true prediction... so y can't me make too?? hehe....

ok... something interesting i haf found....
http://www.newjerusalem.com/akita1.htm
"As I told you, if men do not repent and better themselves, the Father will inflict a terrible punishment on all humanity. It will be a punishment greater than the deluge, such as no one has ever seen before. Fire will fall from the sky and will wipe out a great part of humanity, the good as well as the bad, sparing neither priests nor faithful. The survivors will find themselves so desolate that they will envy the dead.

"Day of darkness and gloom, day of cloud and blackness. A vast and mighty host is assembled, such has never been seen before, such as never will be again to the remotes ages. Before it, a fire devours; after it the flame consumes."

for your information, thunder is the power of heaven: "Then, I saw another powerful angel coming down from heaven, wrapped in a cloud, with a rainbow over his head; his face was like the sun, and his legs were pillars of fire. In his hand he had a small scroll unrolled; he put his right foot in the sea and his left foot on the land. He shouted so loud that it was like a lion roaring! As he did this, seven awesome claps of thunder resounded from heaven. I was preparing to write down the meaning of the seven thunders, but a voice from heaven stopped me! It said: "Seal up the meaning of the seven thunders! Do not write them down!" Then, the angel that I had seen standing in the sea and on the land, raised his right hand to heaven, and swore by the One who lives for ever and ever, who made the heavens and the earth and all that they contain

http://www.newjerusalem.com/worldsend.htm

i so gonna get killed by someone liao... hehe....

well firstly.... wanna say sorry to wes, vir, elton and kenneth for wat happen this morning.... n well up to wat happened....

met up wif the guys at bout 2 plus coz it is a nite out for the 5 of us.... namely me, wes, elton, alvin and vir... and wat happen was we actually ate at 3 plus as i made all of them wait for vir, who at that time was on his way to take a bath n meet us... hehe.... anyway, when he is ready we went to eddy's to haf westean food.... hehe.... kinda got mix up chicken chop n chicken cutlet... chim.... then kenneth came n join us later... hehe....

aft lunch we decided to go town so vir n kenneth and elton went home to change... i went home too coz wanna take my ventolin.... cannot breathe again.... so wes follow me n alvin went wif vir so elton went home alone....

then we meet at kovan mrt station n vir and kenneth was late (as usual) n then made our way to town.... saw stephie..... damn... they PCLB in front of her.... she sure tell my sis one.... lol.... die... anyway, then we went kino.... n guess wat.... alvin, elton and wes got their tarot deck!!! lol... three at the same time... haha... then we went to some pizza place to get dinner....

aft dinner we went to ktv... hehe... sang my heart out!!! so cool!!! though alvin left halfway.... think things will be different if he did not go off early....

anyway, aft ktv we went, of all places, fort canning hill.... my idea actually... n well... wat happened there are not to be known to the public.... sorry bout it... but juz know.... i did something.... n well... wes, vir n elton was clearing up the mess.... that y sorrying to them.... hope kenneth is not frighten by wat happen.... guess another black mark on my name again... hiaz.... if alvin heard wat happen i sure to get scolding by him.... haha... but then again... if he got no sch tml... then it will b different.... but then... i think tonite is more like it has to happen.... so ya... hehe....

so anyway, then we go back home.... n welll... now am here typing blog.... slppin soon.... n... juz to add..... I MISS HIM A LOT!!!!

hiaz... i hate wat i haf to do... i hate my life....

not that i wanna say... but then....

nowadays she keeps on complaining.... mayb she has always been complaining.... juz that i usually not at home lar.... but that not the point... the point is that... she complains non-stop... i stop talking to her already sia.... everytime talk to her (to ask for cash... hello... wat to do) she will complaing.... lol.... n it is not like i ask from her everyday... or that i go out everyday... n she still not happy.... when i am not home she complains i come home too late.... when i am at home... she complain i did not go to the office n help them.... later if i go office she will nag at me the whole day.... it is at times like this that i miss school... there she goes again... then complain that she work so hard bla bla bla bla bla bla bla....


ok... so now... i stay at home cannot... i don stay at home also cannot... ask her for cash also cannot... don ask i die... hiaz....



from today on... i will stand on my own!! i will clear all my stuff pay for my everything... i will be indepentent....

(nice speech??? that is wat i will say when i start working... hhehehe)

now not thinking of dying again... or let put it this way... not thinking of killing myself again... more like... aft training today... yes i went back to training... anyway, so ya... training... but then... started coughing like last time... the non-stop type... so long never cough till like that liao... that y i went back to training.... but who knows... hiaz... so cough n cough... n chest pain... again... hiaz... well anyway so on my way home i was like... cannot breathe again... hiaz.... then kept having this scene of me coughing out blood during training or when there is no one around... then tried to call him... but he did not pick up the phone... donno lar... then keep on thinking that went hospital... then doc say donno wat... but then i will not live long.... so it is like me started thinking... if my hp is still not up... then i cannot contact anyone... is it better not to tell anyone that i died till aft my funeral... or is it better to tell them... coz started thinking of all my frens... my church frens... my cca buds.... my school mates.... my aj frens.... then i was thinking.... mayb it is better not to let anyone knows.... mayb they will juz forget bout me.... then mayb it will be better.... i thinking too much again??? hehe...

anyway, during training... i cause a flyer to fall... then aft that.... first time... scare... scare of carrying a gal... scare to throw her... donno y... hiaz... feel like... so weak n useless...

anyway i can't stand it... someone better get out of their depressing mood... coz it is making me sad..... hiaz....


i donno u readin this or not.... but... i know how much u haf to do.... so.... i am willing to give up goin out wif u if u not free.... hiaz.... i don wanna say this... but i know how much u haf to do... n i can't be selfish.... am n will do anything for u... u juz haf to say...

it will be ok things will be fine there is nothing to worry about all in due time will be solved i will be strong i will wait till it is over i will be there, supporting u i promise don leave me alone i don wanna be alone fight do it u can do it!! be strong leave me alone change dance go away act sing dance cast wind blow fire burn ice freeze water splash earth quake but up there stop don stop choose don wan end this start begone maybe no fly away time to go death awaits goodbye done waiting it is over stay the same don wait for me it is not worth it no no no!!! don think lost get it where are you when i needed you the most nevermind it is over right ya it is things will return to as they are but never the same so is it good or bad people change things change nothing nothing will stay the same gone overseas think it is not what i want running away as usual too much time to think life wat is it living dead alive seems like love crush stand up no more not any more just stay crushed forever nothing to do no one to go running nowhere seeking nothing finding none wanting more getting less where is it

beat this.... u slp at 1 am, wake up ar 1 pm.... then u haf bunch at 3 pm aft which u play game till 5 pm then u slp till bout 8 pm n wake up for dinner... then u play game, surf the net, chat till 1 am then u slp again....

then the whole process starts all over again...


if u can do that, then official u r me... hehe...

lol...


u know... last time my parents complain i am always home late... erm.. no... very early in the morning.... now they are complaining i spent too much time at home... now... something is wrong rite?? hehe...

ok... back to my routine... now i am suppose to be playing game... ok... cya tml...

this post is dedicate to my wives... n also to talk a little bout my affairs... heee...

well.. to start off... i have three wives... how i got them?? erm.. aft drama camp.... then... kinda... "married" but none of us said "i do" hehe...

well so a brief intro on them...

1st wife: Vijay... well... short form for donno wat... n a evern shorter version which i call her: VJ... hehe... well.. during streets fest, she n i acted as elton's parents n we are suppose to b divioce... but *ahem* none of us can decide who to keep elton so we can't divioce yet... so still husband n wife...

2nd wife: joanne... how she got into the pic?? i donno... haha... but can say she is my closest wife now... hehe... erm... wat else bout her? i donno... haha...

3rd wife: kiran... haha... well used to keep on acting wif her... so there u haf it.. my wives... hehe...

erm... affairs... well... also got three... deniese.. erm.. coz i took a photo wif her... erm... erah... coz i slpt wif her... (we both slp on the same bed) n erm... lilin.... hehe.... ya...

n my three wives haf an affair too... this guy called gurmit... hiaz...


ok... so that wat goin on in my life as a drama student... n there u haf it.... finally posted things bout my wives....

it is official... either she is mad (as in angry) at me again or she is picking on me again...

donno sia... since dinner nag at me till now... lol... say i did not bring in my clothes... (hello, i wasn't home today... took all the clothes in yesterday liao) if not it will be i spent too much time on the computer.... (then wat u wan me to do... look at u??)

o well... the best thing to do now... is juz to slp... she can't say anything rite... hahaha...

am slppy... but crazy me wanna listen finish this playlist first... hehe... coz finishing liao... currently listening to FIR + David Tao's songs... hehe... finishing liao... then goin to slp... tml will b a better day!!!

by the way, clothes: my bro n sis has more clothes there than me... y is she picking on me???
com: was out the whole of today... n beside it is MY com... i see nothing wrong with using it... hehe...

god... people are asking me out again... kinda sian without my phone sia... so sian that i don feel like going out... donno y sia... ok people... will go out wif u guys asap kk... hehe... also need to save up some money first... me holiday no allowance one hor... so muz bear wif me... hehe...

loneliness suits me... i am fine wif loneliness... yet, there is this thing buggying me... saying i should not be lonely... now wat is worng with it?? it is like... i am so totally over him... long long ago... but y am i still thinking bout him... n it is juz flashes of him in my head... can't remember how he looks like though... more like.... memories... n they will stay that way... juz sometimes... don wanna remember them... will miss all the time we had... he was, aft all, my first...

donno wat to do bout him sia... sometimes think that i am in the wrong... sometimes...glad things are like that now... but then... no point thinking bout it rite... so y am i kept reminded bout him......

enough said... now to all of u, especially that person i haf been conversing through msn nick, good nite, slp tight... sweet dreams... n cya in lala land... hehe... miss u...

prick my finger today.... OUCH!!!! sob sob... then... heard.... kevin prick his 3 times!!!! *faint*

anyway, went for this health check up training thingy... so learnt how to do a health check up lar... then haf to prick finger... haha... damn scary... but hope that i can remember wat i haf learnt...

anyway, me n him was talking... hehe... well... ii wanna prick him n his reply was wat prick... so i said depands on if we are hafing a health check up or checking into a hotel... hehe... ahem... thinking u know wat again... lol...

o well... doin some soul searching again... that y my erm... last two posting... ya...

so we haf reach a stage where i really donno wat is goin on in my life... people's emotions still affects me as much... especially his... well... it is ok... for him... anything...


sky turns dark as nite drew near
so my heart feel dark wif fear
should anything happen without a tear
sometimes causing deep cut lear

o well...