well... another day has gone by.... interesting doesn't it?

has anyone stop their life to think bout this thing called the future?

well... we all have goals... yes i agree... but... wat does future has anything to do wif goals?

u see all our goals are like... pass wif good/distintion grades, find a bf/gf, mayb get married.... get rich n others.... but... wat bout the big future? wat u will n wanna do...

many peopel will juz stop and say i wanna do this... then go do.... when they succeeded... good for them... but... wat next? for those who knows what they wan... where n how to get there... good... but... do anyone of us plan for such things?

mayb i am still young... mayb that is what a lot of us are thinking... look at it this way... how many of us will wan our parents to support us till we either get married or till they die? is that the "role" of a parent? firstly i am QUITE sure they don mind... but... wat bout us... do u wanna b supported by ur parents like FOREVER?? (nice choice... if possible...)

so u see... mayb bout time we start looking at the future... not juz future self... but also who is gonna b in it? if i am wif a fren who isn't gonna b in my future... then... asking myself y... n then wat to do.. y is he/she not gonna b in my future? coz we are not close? coz we are not fren? then i would wanna leave a good impression... these are people who are frens of ur frens who it the fren of other frens n etc etc.... they may not b in ur future...

but for people who u wanna or u know's gonna b in ur future (parents/ family) i think that we should plan our future wif them... no matter wat, we all know that our parents will b wif us... we need to plan for stuff.... like... when my parents retire are they gonna pay for my stuff... how old will i be.... will i still be studying or working... working as.... n also for our AJtic cases.... wat if our parents find outs.... wat is my bf wanna get married... wat is he decided to turn straight... wat if... wat if.... etc etc... all these play a part in our lives n future... this is what we all should b planning for... we need to look at the big picture...


but coz... not so deep lar... the is a limit to everything... cannot over do... but family thing is the most imprtant... n also frens lar... but family more important....

actually i do think bout moving overseas.... in fact talk to my parents... they said if the job there pays better than the ones in singapore then i should go... well.. that is juz one part of the whole thing lar.... i still thinking bout it... coz there are many ways to go overseas for good.... 1. study, 2. work, 3. get money n move... i will not n cannot say which way will i choose yet... or if i will do that or not lar... but at least i got a clear idea of wat i wan....

do u?





craping the whole time.... juz wanna say plan for ur future.... or else there will not be one...

to "me" in my tag: thank u for loving me... n i cannot give my love back due to the following reason...
1. i don like too shy people who don put their name coz fear of lettin me know who they r...
2. i don juz love a person...
3. only one can be in my heart n u r currently in no position to take over his place even if i know ur name
4. you say love too losely... it isn't cheap...
5. when i say i need love... it means love fm the person in my heart... not anyone else... n i only give love to him...
6. give up trying to win me... u can never do it...
7. i still have a queue... u got to wait... it is not ur turn yet... pls take a queue number... i may reconsider
8. i am down... i don like people to tell me u love me when i am down....
9. i only give people one chance... use it up... no more.... so if u happen to have date me b4... sorry... forget it....
10. i am complicated... can u handle me?

i sometimes hope that there is a function where i can let people see n some not to b allow... i guess.... i can always save it... but then...

it been two weeks... i am sure u r over me... haha... but i am not over you... i don really know wat is going on in my life liao... honestly.... we may have made so decisions.... but i still cannot take it... i guess...

drama... ya... i can handle that... attend reheasal... remember lines.... but.... most of my mind has been channeled to not thinking about u that... i cannot get into my charactor... haha.... act like u... coz u act like a king? haha.... u juz order people around... but i can't get ur aura... coz i willingly do everything for u....

mayb i should have listened to u... not b involve in this play... mayb i should... then i won't b like this today... thinkin of how to act like a king... which i can't do so... i miss u... i miss going out wif u... the more i not meeting u... the more i longed for u... the more i think of u... but... come to think of it... i can't think of anything but u anyway...

how long more before i can get out of this stage... i donno... this is the reason why people say don give your all when u r goin into a relationship rite... o well... but... i am glad i did all that i did... but i still miss u....

can't concenterate on makin frens too... can't even maintain a frenship for a week... hiaz... now... got one more person aft me... although only seen once.... y are these things always happening to me? i don wanna rebounce him.... i don even think he can b the next u.... i don think i can find another u....

haf i lost u for good? or wat...

where r u???

why is it that when u don msg me for long i felt lost...
why is it when u go out wif others i feel sad...


why can't i feel others anymore... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


wanna cry, too strong to cry... no one can break me down yet... n i don have enough time liao... hiaz....

mayb i shouldn't have started at the first time...

mayb i should have let him go at the first time...

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish i could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

(chorus)
I'm all out of love, i'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am i without you
I can't be too late to say i was so wrong


I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?
And what would you say if i called on you now
And said that i can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or i'll be gone, i'll be gone

(chorus)

Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of

(repeat chorus)