life is a stage... u act and at the end of the day, are you yourself or your charactor?

see, are we really showing others who we really are? or are we just acting? all of us are actually good actors... we showed others how well we can portray others, or how badly we can do it...

we show others wat we wan them to see... isn't that acting? so when do we stop... no wait... how many of us has reach a stage where we became that person we wan to show... n not ourselves already...

some can call that change... well... i donno...

example: when u like someone... n u realise that that person don like a particular movement u make... so wat u do... u change... n u r not urself already... that is acting... n how long u go about doing it? i donno... maybe forever.... why? juz cause someone u like don wan u to do that...

love makes us change... but because of love we act... and when we actually got that person we love... we stop acting... n so was complained that we changed... but haf we?? no... we are only acting... so... wat to do??

would u rather someone who show u who he really is... or someone who show u wat u wan him to be... can u accept that person for who he is... or u wan that person to be who u wan him to be...

i think i should just stop again... playing SHUT UP now... guess it is time to shut up...

people act in front of u everyday... how do u see who is real, who isn't...

i act everyday... how do i know if i am real or not...


front-stage , back-stage , up-stage , down-stage , wings , crew , actors , on air , off air , the show must go on...

feel like blogging... donno wat to write...
started blogging... donno wat to say...
wanna blog... don wanna say...

hiaz...

suddenly thought of a few things... well to many things in my mind liao wat... guess juz list them down... at least, this is a start...

there are some people whom i used to keep chatting on msn but then now... seems like cannot say anything liao... i donno wat happen... maybe me... maybe not... i donno... leave it like this? or change? who needs to change? n why the change?

LOVE... i donno wat is going on in the romance department any more... don really gonna care too... really don wanna think... hiaz...

suddenly people are just so caught up wif relationship... i donno... bout time me too rite? but then... if i am gonna b alone later stage of my life... then y the sudden need to change... to get someone to call my dear? might as well get used to the way things are now rite... so i won't have a hard time later... o parden me... people are always caught up wif love... it is as if tml is gonna be doomsday n we need to find someone to be wif us so that we will not be alone when we die... i mean... if it comes... it will come... if not.. no point wanting... waiting is one... wanting is when u know there is no need to wait anymore... n still waiting...

then again... wat rights do i have now to say all these...

i don think i will b goin out for midnite tml... or anyday soon... donno y... juz got a feeling.... been thinking... me.. a guy who donno wat he wans... donno wat he wanna do next time... no goals no future... wat can i say bout life... ya... i think u r right... life really has no meaning at all... life sucks... big time... we should juz do nothing to life... so life can do nothing back to us....

longing for the time i am gonna leave this world man... hiaz... i don wan n need that long life that is given to me... hiaz...

stupid crapper... hiaz... feel like deleting all that i wrote... seems so stupid... but then again... hiaz... juz stop...

yup, had a great dream!!! hehe... the tall, hunky guy's back... hehe... muscular n so my type one... well best joke... juz as he was about to *ahem* me... i woke up... argh!!! stupid...

so went to drama training... haha... very fun!! coz we have to put up a play in one day.. in fact last than 24 hours... hehee... n we did it!! coz, we say our lines wif script but the result was cool!! hehe.. so fun!! screw up many parts as usual... hehe..

so a sad end? well coz he is not happy... kinda haf some family problem... hiaz.. donno lar.. how to b happy when he is like that... hiaz... he's kinda fed up.. n i donno wat to do... juz staying here to chat wif him is all i can think of... man... i really donno wat to do to make him see that i am not taking him for granted... or using him... really donno wat to do sia... man... wits end...

sometimes i really wonder if i really am too lazy to do things... wes was complaining that i don seems to be treating them well... like... taking them for granted... i really donno wat to say sia... i think i don do anything... yea that true... n also... kinda seems like... i think... i haf gone back to this world of mine... where no one else matter... mayb i should juz stay there n not meet up wif people at all... this way i will not dissapoint anyone... will not haf to care for anyone... will not hurt anyone... rite?

hiaz... thinking twice bout getting my phoneline back...

mayb i should juz fade off from everything n everyone... less contact less heartbreak... less feelings...

some how... i think i really will choose goin overseas...

Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)

What Emotion Dominates you?
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(lonely me... )

You are 93% Pisces

(fishy fishy me...)

Your Element Is Air

http://www.quizdiva.net/bt/air.jpg">>You dislike conflict, and you' quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

(air... that new...)

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this worldSo much so that you tend to live in your head most of the timeYou have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

(dreamer me..)





Mysterious, elegant, creative and calmYou are a sprite of the Water. Creative and one of
the most beautiful of sprites, you strike
wonder and curiosity into the hearts and minds
of all. Even though you are capable of
attraction and seduction you are way above all
that, you understand the true meaning of life
and are very open and understanding of life's
mysteries, most likely you are one of them. You
are respectful of all ways of life and do not
judge one due to their position or station in
life. You are gifted in the ways of
understanding and given the chance are usually
full of good, wise advice but your not the type
to take the stand and express such things. Your
laid back nature can be troubling, you don't
take many risks and prefer to keep things as
they are. You are one of the most unique of
sprites.

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(feel like singing drowning...)

ok... now got more med.. doc suspect that it is not the cough that makes me cough but my NOSE!!! it never cause any trouble to me till now sia... anyway the x ray for my lungs is ok... so everythings ok i guess... hehe... then well.. got more med.. hehe... erm cough syrup which is slppy kind... or running nose which is also slppy... n something to drip into my nose... yucks... so another week of slpping in bed doin nth... hiaz..

so well.. was waiting for him to come online last nite as usual... then when he comes online... was told that he has gotten some injury from akido again... hiaz... donno y... really heart pain... felt my heart really pain sia.. hiaz... donno y i started crying... i don think anyone else has made me like that b4 sia... first time... donno wat to say... so worried for him...hiaz...

anyway, goin to grab med... tata.. n slp tight!

I LOVE JACK JACK I LOCE JACK JACK I LOVE JACK JACK I LOVE JACK JACK I LOVE JACK JACK....

one whole day no chat.... then finally talk... but guess he is not free... take like... donno how long to reply one word...

JACK JACK SO CUTE JACK JACK SO CUTE JACK JACK SO CUTE JACK JACK SO CUTE JACK JACK SO CUTE...

he is busy he is busy he is busy he is busy he is busy he is busy he is busy he is busy he is busy he is busy...

HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY HOLIDAY!!!

i think too much i think too much i think too much i think too much i think too much i think too much...

TOTALLY ENJOY MYSELF A LOT THESE DAYS TOTALLY ENJOY MYSELF A LOT THESE DAY...

ok... it is not working... goin to slp... hope i can... he is bz... he will b bz... haf to understand... heehe...

i can handle this!!

this is y i love blogging... haha.. destress n de... deemotional?? haha...

n to alvin... wanna say something one.. but then coz it is too bad liao... think will keep it to myself only... hehe... there is a limit to bitching... =P

anyway, he is bz... tml got a long day... i think he needs to prepare... all i hope now is that he will slp early, get enough rest... miss u....

juz came back from midnite again... hehe...

anyway, watched without a paddle... haha... funny show... couldn't stop laughing... haha... shall not say much... don b spoiler... hehe...

anyway, best thing is the company... hehe...

ok... now got to find horror show people liao.... coz he don like to watch horror shows... hehe... shutter or saw anyone??

the only worrying thing is that... he drives at nite n when i not around, he will get too slppy... then he almost met into an accident... hiaz... damn worried bout him.. hiaz... almost cry... donno y... hiaz.... take care ya...

hate my com... muz get it fixed soon...