well..... yesterday training was cool.... n i couldn't stand it.... it is juz too good to b true..... wat such intensitisy i can still run n jump about...... hahhaha..... not pain.... hehehe...!!! =P so happy......

well anyway, guess i don need to go to the gym liao.....

actually i was thinking how to start all ver again.... as in my life...... everyone was saying that.... how life sucks or how to repaly life..... i donno lar.... it is like since we can't change life y don we live with wat we haf n try to do wif wat we haf...... don really care if i can get back wif adrian..... hehe.... although i wan to, wish to, hope to..... but so wat..... in the first place it is my mistake..... so well if i can't haf him like tat lor..... hahhaa...... n also, no point thinkin of how life will be if i did or did not do something or anything...... hahahaa......

put it this way..... this is my life....... i wanna end it i will...... i wanna live i will..... i will do wat ever i wan to it....... n well... i donno...... i live for myself n my other half...... n no one else...... see who my other half is...... for now.... adrian.... hahaa..... u know i juz read somewhere that i let go of things i cannot have easily..... y am i still holding on to adrian..... hahaa..... guess coz he has my heart..... for now.... hopefully for long..... as long as forever....... hhehehhee....... well people in love...... man...... know how it feels..... out of love also felt that way.......

sometimes i wonder if people cannot move on, wat will happen..... now i knoe..... they juz get stuck there..... no movement..... nth....... how i know.... well coz i have not been moving for a year already..... n best is that i did not move due to well... i donno.... aft i enter this circle i changed a lot...... kinda get a little cold.... well i am.... very cold.... very very cold...... guess not much people notice how much i change coz many people who knows me now donno me last time.... n those we knows me last time we haf little contact..... o well... wat to do......

i think i can freely say this..... how many people actually knows me.... how many people knows me well??? hahaaha....... from wat i see..... i think that i don open up..... well that me for a long time....... should i open up?? don feel like man.... hahaha.... see how lar......