i donno wat to say.... just well.... still alive..... hahha..... funny right.... hahha..... well here are some words from vj my boss during the production of the play......

Hey Sam..... u r a cool guy who is like always willing to lend a listening ear. u should stay alive. dun bother trying to kill urself cos i will kick u on ur ass okie. take care n i am alwaz here for u k.

hahha that was vj my boss!!! say hi to her kk..... well yesterday..... cool lar..... erm.... well i donno wat to say..... will juz say everything i guess......

at bout 12 plus i decided not to go to sch..... well thinking of killing myself lar... wat else.... hehehe.... then hor kor msg me n tell me that cutting my wrist will not kill me.... coz i put that as my msn nick.... so we started tokin bout dying.... he teaching me how to die... hahha.... guess he donno that i really wanted to kill myself..... well he did ask me not to lar.... so don knock his head or i will do worst.... hahaha.... but he so cute no one will do anyting to him..... except..... mayb.... hhehee...

well then couldn't remember who else msg me.... hahaha juz know that the one i don wanna msg me msg me........ alvin........
y?? coz he always make me change my mind one...... hiaz..... he hor..... nth to say..... juz well.... think think a while...... well slp......

wake up at 8..... then chao..... coz mummy donno i pon.... if not sure die.... hehehe..... went out..... took 112 around hg...... then stop to change to 53..... go airport...... damn long..... reach airport liao continue journey back to bishan...... by then ass aching more than being AHEM...... well then went to eat.... then arcard..... then play play..... then like tt lor..... then choose..... cck or east coast park...... decided to go to cck...... coz kor live there as well..... so mayb can meet him.... hahhaa......

anyway, took the train...... reach amk felt her presence...... n it is the bad one....... all the way till yishun....... then suddenly got scare of people...... n any one comes near me make my heart beat very very fast..... n very very scare....... well.... elton helps by castin a spell...... i juz lost all my ability to cast anything...... then reach cck.... went to lot1 to buy white lily..... n then went to take 172.... ask kor but he still aslp.... so went to ask the bus donno wat u call them..... then reach.... wa.... so many people there...... erm... rephase..... so many presences there.... n kinda scared by them...... actully very scare...... then call elton again.... hehehe...... then felt some helping me..... some disturbing me....... but as usual, close everyone up...... then realise that a feeling is coming from the lawn cemetary. n i was lead to it.... i can actually feel her.... hehe..... ya... she brought me there to where she is.... n when i reach there.... i was.... WOW..... finally..... wanna do this for a long long time..... hehhe..... saw her again..... n well... she still never fails to bring a smile to my face.... well that is when i finally let go of her..... finally..... hehehe....... o man..... felt so happy!!!.... well she is happy in heaven too..... n she is also waiting for me.... coz i can't release her so she can't leave me.... haha... so nice....

well aft that juz leave n went to lot1 again... ahahha.... y??? sian nothing to do and so go arcard again.... then kor sms me.... then cannot meet.... then like tt lor..... went to spa..... took 190.... hehehe... tok to alvin on the bus.... so nice.... hehehe..... then reach so enjoy lor.... then so stupid.... i fall down.... now hand still pain.... but quite comical.... hahhahaa..... then nvm things happen there lar.... went suana n so cool.... hehe.... so many people too.... quite a lot lar.... then saw this n that..... then..... went to the donno wat the name room.... it is at the roof top.... so nice.... at nite some more... hehe.... then went to the private room..... erm..... censor censor..... hehehe..... all u need to know is that i did not BJ or A*** or wat ever..... hehehe..... got well.... service by bout 4,5 guys..... so erm... nice.... hehehe.....

anyway went home aft tt..... haf dinner then tok to elton then slp....
miss the spa..... .ehhehehehehe

The Journey
Time waits for no one, sure as the tide pulls the ocean
Sure as the path that's been chosen cannot be changed
In my life's destination, I searched for the explanation
For some kind of reason for my sorrow and pain
But in my isolation, I learned to listen
To be thankful for the love that I'd been given

Chorus:
This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn, I've laughed and cried as the road unwinds
This is my journey, and I've learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up, to bring my dreams alive

In my desperation, I swore never again
Would I hear all the laughter of my friends and my family
A million tears that I'd cry then began to dry
Silence of the night time
I have come to realize a sweet inspiration filled my horizon
Gave me the heart to go on and never would give in

Repeat Chorus

I'm going to love each moment of every day and every night
I'll look back to the past with the sweetest smile
For now, I realize I've been given the key to life
I've been kissed by the angel by my side
Oh, yeah

Repeat Chorus

To bring my dreams alive
To bring my dreams alive