well... bad day today... (mayb should say yesterday... but nvm)

anyway, went cheerleading... as u all know i haf not been training for a long time due to my cough... so went back... me getting bad at lots of the stunts... so... well... takes a while to get back my momentent.... but guess some people either has too high expectation of me or juz plan idiotic as in wan the stunts to go well everytime... lol lor... pls.... i juz recover from an illness... n still coughing my dear... n u think it is so easy to carry a gal u can always take over my position... it is at days like this that i question myself y i join them.... lol..

anyway, dinner was one of the reason i guess... hehe... well, the moms cook very very nice malay food... unable to find outside one... thank god i am there sia... we had our christmas celebration n boy was it good... i mean the food lar... hehee... well... don think there is much to say bout that...

anyway, dar dar sms me.... n asked how was i... bla bla bla... anyway, that guy always say the wrong thing at the wrong time... well i was feeling down already... (am feeling down this few days) and he still pisses me off... i am like... argh liao... n he still question me bout a lot of things n stuff.... i am so piss wif him that... i donno... i kinda... push him away.... n... well... i think we kinda break off for... well... erm... ever? don think he will b contacting me any more.... hiaz... a mistake? or... something which i should do for a long time liao....

that is one...

well.. got to know this guy called eric... he is nice... n... we kinda had this " he needs a bf n i need someone to be by my side" kinda thing n... status now... unsure... n thinking bout it... i don think i would wanna get involve wif him... well at least not yet... coz... there is no love btn us... i like him.. he like me.... n we are single n... well... that not rite... rite?? hiaz.... he is nice... very nice to me... hiaz.... got to stop....

n... well our usual... that one i haf been mentioning in my blog.... lol... i think it is close to a mth liao... n i haf not get my reply... n it is like... kinda been putting off wif him.... coz he is stress n ya... he is this... he is that... i am ok... fine wif watever he says bout me n try not to ans back.... try to make him happy but seems to b makin him more angry wif me.... i donno... i went into this... with me blanding into him... into his ways... into his move n all... n his reply was.... can u don be like that.... u never take anything seriously... n when he joke can... i reply wif a joke... he is angry... well... i still can take it... every time i got angry n he say see scold me i will juz stop n cool myself down... hiaz... it is hard... but i am doin it.... but... wat is it that he is doin i donno.... n i really.. really... wan my ans.... hiaz... to wait... or not.... n still haf not ask him yet.... he can't take hint.... argh!!! first time someone make me like this sia.... if it is last time... not up to my standard, sayonara.... hiaz..... god!!!

it is at time like this... that i wanna tell someone else.... this.... to u... the only person i sang this song to....

I'm sorry for me buggin' you
Sorry for being such a fool
God knows I've tried but I can't let go I'm crazy 'bout you know who

I'm sorry for me needing you
Sorry girl that you don't feel it too
I get the point, should be a man about it
I've never been good at that - no no
Forgive me for being me
I've tried to let go

Chorus:
I know you got a boyfriend-another man
Another guy by your side
Someone who hopefully treats you right
But you don't know how much I wish That I was
Your boyfriend - that other guy
The only one who's allowed
In your room to lay in your arms at night
now you don't know how much I wishThat I was your boyfriend

I'm sorry for me wanting you
Sorry for not playing by the rules
But what would you do if you were in my shoes
Feeling lost and blue Mnn

I'm sorry for me lovin' you
sorry for being such a fool
God knows I've tried but I can't let go
I'm crazy 'bout you know who

Chorus:

Another man is by your side
I hope he treats you right
I wish I was the only one
To lay in your arms at night
Well you can't blame a guy for tryin'
now what else can I do
And how I wish that my prayers, Thoughts and dreams
Would become reality

...... offical lack of love ......