well... wanna juz go trap... but then was trap by my parents today so juz add tat down as a side line...

anyway, both telling me different thing at the same time... n i can't run coz i was hafing lunch... now see any other parents can beat that....

well... i donno... been stoning since.... today... well... i really donno wat to say... hangover from yesterday... well... don ask... no words can describe yesterday... if other blog bout it then go read it from them...

lookin out of the windows with the grill open... looking down... juz realise wat a long way down it is... went home alone yesterday... thinking bout lot of things... people wanna lead a normal life... i do too... n when someone is too difficult to handle.. or perhaps when they got into trouble, how many people will stay with them.... i think i heard the most "if anything happen don look for me" ever in my life... can't remember from who liao... doesn't matter too.... people wan normal life... u can't make their life normal, they kick u out... is that how things goes in this world?

surprise myself at a lot of things... no matter wat happen to me i still know how to go home... juz donno how i got home... hiaz... considering that my house is the place i spent the most in my life... god knows wat will happen if i move out or change house... *ponder*

christmas is coming... i actually forgot bout that... now, days juz pass as they... pass... really donno much any more...

maybe i juz wan someone to take care of me... maybe i juz wan to b loved n taken cared of... maybe i should start thinking of how i am goin to spent the rest of my life alone...

nowadays the only thing that cheered me up is this comic... called boy meets boy... well... i donno... it ended alreeady... today read the last part... it is a happy ending... but then... it made me long for wat the guys gone through in the comic... i think i am addicted to the comic liao... don wan it to end... too much ending...

http://boymeetsboy.keenspot.com/d/20000922.html

juz had a phone call wif wes... i really donno wat to say liao... feel like saying from now on, call my house... will not ans or reply sms... think i will b out most of the time or slpping... basicially don bother contacting me... don think i will update my blog wif happenings....