Goodbye to you. Goodbye to everything that I knew. You are the one that I love. The one thing that I tried to hold on to.

We met during an outing organized by this forum in the web. I was attracted by your looks. Tall, muscular, tanned, and the list go on and on. Well, you were attracted to me too. By my boyish looks and by the way I see life. Happy go lucky. And not caring bout a thing in the world. You PMed me and well, we stayed in contact. Was actually very very happy that you remembered me and shy me will not PM anyone. So it came to the day when we would meet in a solo date. I couldn’t sleep the night before and was so excited that I couldn’t think of what to wear. It went well. I still remember it. We went to this restaurant at Suntec City and then a movie there as well. We were holding hands in there and for once, I felt loved, safe and sound. Really not caring of anything in the world except for him. It seems that the whole world only have you and me. Needless to say, we got together on that day. So It came to be that we actually lasted so long. For about three years. We still love each other yes, but we can’t meet; your family started to have some problem, and I guess, all good things will have to come to an end. Saying good bye was the hardest thing I could ever do. I mean, how do you tell someone who you love and who loves you that all that has happen to him couldn’t be as bad as what had happen to yourself? How do you tell the one you love that you are going to die soon? For the best of you, I think it will be better to leave it and walk away. At least you will have more time to forget me. I still remembered that day, our last day together. We were at the same place as our first date. Watching movie from the same place. That night, we went to walk in the part. You said to me,” dear, you know what? The time we spent together is really short. And I really treasure all the time we have together.” O how those words break my heart. I do too, I treasure them even more now that I am dying. But then, I knew that I have to do that. So I replied,” ya, but all those time spent are not enough. I want to have more time with you.” Hurts… “ but dear, you know I cannot…” pain… “well then, perhaps we are not meant for each other…” hell… I will never forget those eyes you gave me. Those eyes as if someone tore you apart. “dear… you don mean..” “sorry, but yes I do.”

Goodbye my love… goodbye to you.
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You and only you are the one I love
The one and only thing I tried to hold on to…

Don’t cry for me, cause I know that you will. I am not worth it. Just forget bout me, forget bout our love, and forget bout the time we spent together.


How could you be so stupid? O my dearest… all I did was so that you could live longer, but it seems that it is the other way round. O man, I am so sorry dear, so sorry. But don’t worry, I will join you soon. I promise I will. Please wait for me. I am going with you…