need to do a quick one... coz going for training soon.... hehee....

*ahem*

erm... sorry to say this people.... but... pls stop asking me to change or becomes straight.... i mean... i haf chosen this path.... n there is no use asking me to become who or wat i don wanna be.... put it this way.... wat if i ask u to become gay??? wat will ur reaction be??? i am not angry or wat.... juz... well.. u know....


n WJ.... cya on sat man!!!! u better b there sia..... hehehe.... miss u deary..... thank god other than anne no one else fm YCS read this sia.... if not... i'll b dead.... hehehe....

ok... counting down to the day i step down.... can't wait sia.....

ok... i wanna say this to my dearest mummy..... anne pang c** ling.... sorry... donno how to spell... is it... nvm...
i think u haf a hard time wif me as ur spiritual in charge.... i will not give any excuse for my "doing" and i think u will understand..... kinda hard with who i am n this faith i profess.... hehehe..... well.... i know that there are many things that i did not do... and all... but i really really hope that aft this, we will still keep in touch.... hehe.... i still feel that i am closer to u than anyone else in YCS.... in fact.... the three YCS people who are readin this.... u guys r the closest to me..... namely, anne, WJ, and donkey..... thinking back.... how long have we known each other???? 6 years?? 7 years??? i donno.... lost track.... hahaha..... n to think that i used to think that dom is too sissy for my taste.... ahhahaha..... oops.... hehehe... now it seems.... i can b worst!!!! hahahaa.....
hey i know this is hard.... i donno how to say this to u..... well u see... when i was in primary sch, such things never cross my mind..... and now.... i donno wat to say..... but now.... i made my choice.... to b aj n well... wif my dar dar..... i like it like this.... anne anne... i donno how well u can take this.... i think u can.... but u haf to know..... that i still like u the way it was last time n now..... no change..... i still love the times we haf recess together..... wif jacqueline...... how I used to disturbe u two sayin that u two eat so slow..... but now... it seems that i am even slower.... hahaha.... well thhings change.... all things change..... but u r still a pal.... u r more than a fren already..... u r more than a lover.... u r already my soul mate..... n there is nothhing i will not do for u..... take care of urself kk..... watever u need, when ever u need.... do give me a ring..... n "i'll b there for u...."
love u mummy!!!~!

ps... one of this days muz briing u go n see ur grand son sia.... he is very cute.... hehee..... =P

o well... aft leaving nines yesterday.... suddenly felt.... a strange yet familiar feeling..... walk walk walk.... then realise something.... it is the feeling of being alone..... recharge... thininking...... felt so good n refresh.... then wanna call people out.... but seems like... no one free.... o well... went home n play game... hehee....

i find that so many songs spark so many things bout me sia.... feelings and all.... but o well... better control...

now am in sch lar... then on the way here.... saw this guy.... he knows me.... but me kinda forgot who he is..... that set me thinking.... bout my old frens.... kinda lost touch wif them sia..... hiaz...... miss them suddenly.....
then that is not all..... coz that guy looks like..... gundamX..... adrian..... hhey hey... it is not that.... it is juz.... well... i really donno wat to say.... wat i felt was..... something lost.... something good... no, something great.... n gone.... sad... yes.... unhappy... ya..... but... not so much as last time......

so it set me thinking.... how many times are we able to totally foget someone??? forget bout wat we went through??? forget about the whole time we were together.... i mean... if it means something, then...it got to be... like... i donno...... coz it is like... i only think like that bout adrian..... the rest.... sad to say.... no.... not like this.... i think bout the time we are together.... but anything that reminds me of adrian.... juz bring back pain..... well at least not as much as last time..... but still there sia.....

n u know wat??? all i have to do is think of dar dar, n everything dissapper!!! hhehehe.... man... cool sia..... my wonder dar....hiaz.... so miss him..... am sure he misses me too.... hehee... but he don wanna say..... damn... hahhahaa.....

juz say my fac.... now forgot wat i wanna say liao.... ahahhaha.... o well guess i'll end here.... so tat all for today people.... till the next time i go online again..... ciao!!!