too long never update blog liao.... sorry people..... don think i can remember lots of stuff.... so guess will not say too much.....



i hope.... hehehhee......




well start things off..... my grandpa.... he haf well... cancer..... last stage liao..... kinda well.... he haf water in his brain.... then... go for operation.... n..... SUCCESS!!!!! hehe..... donno wat to say.... juz.... so happy.... hehee..... THANK U GOD!!

cheerleading.... well.... too many injury liao.... but not as bad as the flyers..... but way too many mental injury too.... hiaz..... stay or go??? never thought that i will think this way.... o well... all i can say is.... am stayin for now.....

now.... personally.... to someone..... it is not as easy as u think.... so wat if i have people.... so wat if i haf frens???? i know people care..... but.... can any one of u tell me to be str8 or to be aj?? no rite??? coz these are decision made by myself.... not that i donno or thinking of wat to choose.... but more like.... thinking.... n these are things that i have to settle myself.... coz it is my story.... my life..... and y am i sayin this??? for the first time in my life, i think... if my mummy ask me to get married to pass on the family line.... i may sia.... y??

all my life.... i am seeking only one thing..... my mom approval..... y?? i donno.... did a lot of things to impress her.... to make her say "well done"..... but all i got?? was nothing...... was master of ceremony (MC) last year for easter vigil mass... did i do well?? i think i did.... n wat she say?? nothing.... no praise... nothing..... this year my bro did it... n well.... wat can i say..... 3 words.... Full Of Praise.... to say i am jealous oof my bro?? no i am not.... y??? mayb coz of my birth.... she kinda haf to go through a lot due to me.... me being premature n all.... so.... all i can say is.... though it is not my fault.... i can't help blaming myself..... wat to do.... well... now... i know she will not give me wat i wan.... so.... there u haf... the current me.... for those who know me long will know wat i mean.... i changed a lot..... A LOT......

next.... my faith..... wat to say sia.... juz serve mass yesterday.... felt like.... like i was born to do it..... it felt so easy.... so free..... so natural..... so..... like.... i donno..... like when u put a duck in water for the first time n it started swimming..... i donno but it felt good..... hehe.... =P

now.... on to dar dar.... erm.... well.... nothhing is wrong.... everything fine..... hehe.... but thinking too much..... too crazy bout him i guess...... hehee.... i juz donno.... hehee....
haf you guys watched City Of Angels???

ANGEL
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it OK
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction or a beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of the Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent revelrie
You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of the Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent revelrie
In the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here


i felt that he is my angel.... feels like heaven....

IRIS
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


wat can i say... he juz knows who i am..... i really really like the show sia..... n.... call me stupid.... but.... i can't think of him leavin me sia.... n coz if he do..... i donno.....felt.... like.... goin too.... damn i watch too much tv liao...... thinking too much of death sia..... *dot dot dot*

dar dar.... i donno wat to say to u.... i really donno.... this is not the "we haf nothing to say" donno wat to say.... this is the "words can't describe" donno wat to say.... when i am wif u.... i don need to talk.... i got nothing to say.... u can say that i am enchanted by u.... i think so sia.... this is way beyond happiness.... it is something.... something that i cannot put words on... haha.... i can only say here sia.... coz u don read this.... n if i tell u u will start your "man he loves me so much that i am scare sia" look or you will go into your "i don haf the money, looks, figure unlike u... y do u love me so" thingy again..... hahaha..... dar.... all the things u do for me..... all that u let me feel.... man... it is really really way beyond words.... n like u, all i can say is "i have nothing to give you but my love" I LOVE U DAR DAR!!!!

sorry to those who juz break up.... not attached n wanting to..... n well.... can't or done like this lovey dovey thingy..... but.... this is my blog!!!!!

ok... now.... msgers again.....

to all who posted at my tag: thhanks man..... u guys donno that i read my blog to read wat u guys say sia.... hehehe.... =P

son: i got well liao.... hehhee thanks for ur comment.... next time go out i will try to go wif u ya??? hehhee....

solitude: thanks man!!! well... actually i fail my test... hehhee.... n i will take care... don worry.... i think i know wat u mean.....

linus kor: sorry.... FF addict..... hardcore player here..... =P

kast: wait long long dick also cannot b hard to fuck a gal...... =P

alvin: hehe.... free??/ wanna go out??? hehehe... =P

joe: miss me??? hehhee =P

virgil: cannot help it lar... but..... damn... u r juz so good to take care of urself.... n so that is y i told u wat i did....

sorry guys.... too many pent up emotions n thoughts...... now letting them out.... kinda cool.... don worry too much bout me guys.... coz i can take care of myself....

i really really feel like i can't get enough of typing in my blog..... hiaz.....