I have come down to a conclusion…. My mom will not care even if I die… y?? coz when I got home wanna tok to her…. Donno wat happen to her…. Bad day I think…. N so she juz like scold me… well complain bout me joining cheerleading… and other stuff… and then she was like… I donno lor…. I already feeling no good… sick n all…. And she…. She…. She just… like that…. I donno lor…. Feel so sucky now….. at first I was thinking how bout my mummy if I die…. Now…. Kinda like anytime I go also nvm liao…. She don care wat…. Donno who in this family of mine will care….. my sisters will be like…. “Well with or without him also nvm”….. my bro will be happy to have the whole room for himself…. My parents…. They don care bout wat I do anyway….

I at first though n hope that people will remember me aft I die…. Now… kinda like…. Guess no one will remember me….. well also good that way…. At least less people will know n care that I die….

I donno lor but at cheer…. They keep on laughing at my dance…. It is as a joke… but felt so discouraged and so sad…. And they donno…. Like I will tell them like that…. Hiaz…. Nothing seems to worth living…. Wanna cry also cannot….. my com is giving me problem…. And I hate it when I can’t connect to the internet at home….. I donno liao lar… kinda living day by day…. No goals nothing…. Wonder y is life like this…

Best thing I see is that people are hurting me without them knowing…. And I donno wanna them to know…. I donno y… but just don feel like telling them…. Hiaz…. How…

Anyone willing to take me in n support me??? I think my parents don wan me anymore….