i donno wat happen.... but suddenly feel so sad...... n depress..... thinking of..... him?? again?? i think so..... listening to some songs......

actually was so happy.... that he sent me a email.... wishing me happy birthday n that all my wishes will come true...... if only it is true.... if only he can make it come true..... funniest thing is that he is the only one who can make it come true...... hiaz......

the truth i have now come to realise is that, in our heart, there is this hole... and it is different in all... and the thing is that adrian fits this hole perfectly..... and when he left the emptyness is there..... and well we are too empty to know what happen.... well at least tt me..... kinda coz i never felt like this before..... not even wif karen..... and then began my search to fill this hole..... some can put in but do not fit..... some did not fit at all...... and i fit in some too..... however they do not fit mine...... so thus i believe we all are seaching for that one that fits perfectly...... kinda like those who are happily attached.... str8 or ajs..... n maybe adrian fits mine but i do not fit his.... who knows... but i wanna know if i fits his or not..... coz if i don.... then too bad for me..... n i guess i will move on n let others come in...... but for now, it is him and only him.....

sometimes people just want to wait for others when it is clear that the other party is not willing to accept...... all i can say is that think bout this..... that person may fit perfectly in that hole in ur heart but do u fit his?? or hers??? if u don then he or she is not meant to b urs...... n that someone else better is out there...... someone who fits the hole in ur heart n u fits theirs.....

love is a game in a way....... it is a matching game..... where we match here match there..... to find the perfect fit in both party....... it is kinda long game that will last a lifetime...... why wanna get attached now when we are so young??? y so desperate to get attached???? this love game is not something that we can say we want n we get...... it is like when i don wan there are so many people wan me...... n when i wan, donno where they all go...... but still i will wait..... i will wait till the one comes...... if we can find our one now.... good..... but i am willing to wait..... i don wan to fall for nth again..... i don wanna hurt others n get hurt anymore......

love...... love me...... love me not....... how to know if u r in love????? love??? it is a very very strange thing...... the ones that come... well good.... no matter what happen, i feel that i have gain something from each and every one...... feel sad once in a while for some...... happy for some...... n well..... thinkin of one....... i miss u adrian....... sure u can't tell that i am crying now.... sure u donno that u r the first person i love i cried for..... n cried the most....... n longest...... there are things u don know n things that u will never know......

Boyzone
I Love The Way You Love Me

I like the feel of your name on my lips
And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The way that your fingers run through my hair
And how your scent lingers even when you're not there
And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh
And how you enjoy your two-hour bath
And how you've convinced me to dance in the rain
With everyone watching like we were insane

Chorus :
I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me

And I like to imitate ol' Jerry Lee
And you roll your eyes when I'm slightly off key
And I like the innocent way that you cry
At sappy old movies you've seen hundreds of times

[Chorus]

And I could list a million things
I love to like about you
But they could all come down to one reason
I could never live without you..

[Chorus] till fade



Michelle Branch
Goodbye To You

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star


911
The Day We Find Love

Isn't the first time won't be the last time

Don't you worry, I don't mean to make you sad
My tears will soon be over with your conscience clear for a new life ahead
Don't be sorry, I really need to hear the truth
The only thing I'm asking, cause I need you to remember me
As the only one who sets you free
Maybe time alone will make you see how deep our love could be
No, it's never to late

* Cause I know this isn't the first time won't be the last time
I surrender my soul cause you're always
Keeping me waiting, anticipating the day we find love once again

I won't give up while there's a glimmer of a chance
A dream that's never ending inviting love and a perfect romance
A burning passion, oh, baby, you're my destiny
But the message I'm receiving is you're through with me
But I'll be there even though you tell me you don't care, no,no
How could you forget the times we shared, don't throw our love away
You know it's never too late

[Repeat *]

Ooh, remember me as the only one who sets you free
Maybe time alone will make you see how deep our love could be
No, it's never too late, no, no, no, no

[Repeat *]


Alex Wong
Bui Yao Hai Pa
wei yi

S Club 7
Show Me Your Colours

You cast your spell over me
Don't know where to turn to anymore
I see your face
Every morning when I wake up
Every night when I go to bed

You're here with me
Somehow, don't know how
I can feel you right now
So close, so real

Do, do-do, do-do
Show me your colours

Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell I'm in
Please don't break my heart
Show me
Show me your colours, baby
Tell me who you really are

I know you want what I want
Far away, but still within our reach
Do you dare?
Are you brave enough to show me
What your heart really wants to

I say your name to myself out loud
Wanna have you all around
Like a cover for the cold on the outside
Making love in the candlelight

Do, do-do, do-do

Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell I'm in
Please don't break my heart
Show me
Show me your colours, baby
Tell me who you really are

Baby
Don't tell me I mean nothing
After all you did
Baby, don't you tell me
Tell me I mean nothing
Tell me I mean nothing to you
Please show me now

Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell I'm in
Please don't break my heart
Show me
Show me your colours, baby
Tell me who you really are

Show me
Show me your colours
Show me
Don't break this spell I'm in
Please don't break my heart
Show me
Show me your colours, baby
Tell me who you really are

I'm not allowed to adore you
The way you know I really want
But I do
Even though it's been a nightmare
To pretend that it's all, alright
It's not the easiest thing to avoid
Damage is already done
I'm in love
With you

Have You Ever
Shin
Yi Liao Bai Liao


Ant & Dec
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