would say this is one of the most difficult question i can ever answer... at many parts of my life now... i though i know the answer... but then....

well... today.... or rather... yesterday, i kinda got another answer to the question. and that is... me...

y? coz this is my life.... like wat M1 says... 1 life, live it....

i really really glad that i joined cheerleading.... it reallly really is very fun.... love it!! i mean... injuries wise, i am never injure as much as i am now but the fun i got.... it is great.... it is like... i am really alive... really really alive.... u will only feel live when u have live in ur hands.... how do u feel when u r holding a baby, especially if that is urs.... how would u feel if u r holding to someone u love.... how would u feel if u caught ur flyer.... and lastly.... if someone dies in ur hands..... that feeling... that is life.....

n this life of ours is in our own hands as well... that is why u can commit sucide.... coz it is ur life....

ok this is suppose to b a happy post.....
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so u see..... this is life..... and... suddenly i realise that my life is control by me alone.... well, look at what i have choosen.... the people in my life... the things i do.... well... in a way, i did not control.... my passion for cheerleading will make me say ok to tonite's performance n tml's one as well.... y? coz it is my passion..... i came to realise this.... that if i don take care of myself, no one will.... n if i don take care of myself.... i cannot cheer anymore.... that is y i say no to tonite n tml's performance.... even though i feel that the possibility of me fainting or developing complication is low.... i still got to say no.... as there is still that possibility...... i got to take care of myself.... coz if i don, who will.....

well... so now.... i got to take care of someone else too.... so i got to start learning to take care of myself then him too... well... i know i always will take good care of others... but now the time to do so for myself... ehhee...

anyway, a message to all people who are not taking care of urself.... or taking care of others more than urself: like wat i told wes... if u cannot take care of urself how can u take care of others.... in cheerleading, the base haf to take care of the flyer... if the base don take care of himself or herself.... how to take care of the flyer.... if the base falls... the flyer will get injure too..... thus i will take care of myself.... i promise u i will....


so cheerleading gang.... wait for me... i will b back.... if u guys still wan me back lar... n promise me.... u guys will take care of each other.... although i guess it is only jeff who will read this n mayb sue.... but i guess it time i let jeff link my blog.... hehe....

o well.... love u all.... take care ya....

i think i finally hit the big 20.... haha....