i was thinking about a lot of things that happened to me these days...

am i really very good?? haha.. y i say this is coz there are a lot of people who say they are not worthy of me... well.. y?? am i really that good?? or r u that bad?

next on irc... well unless u put chat and mayb more i don think anyone wanna chat... so like chatted wif this guy.. well he seems nice... talk on the phone some more... then told him no i don wanna meet.. well.. already said chat n mayb more liao... then he accuse me of cheating him... o well.. wat to do...

then this another guy who lives overseas.... we meet, he not happy wif the way i handle things... then say don wanna contact... then i was like ok fine... then sorry lor... then he tell me if i change then mayb can still b together... so fine... then one day i msg him... his reply was that if i don wanna procede wif him then don contact him... i was like... erm... but then u said that we can try... so ok lor... since u wanna me to make a decision then fine lor... so ok... things were fine... till he msg me last nite... lol... n ask y i did not call him... i was like... erm... coz u ask me to make a decision.. which i did... but did not chose u... then he was like ok then forget it... interesting...

well looking back on my bf.... i really donno wat to say... all of them got their very good n erm... the bad... i donno... how much worthy am i of them?? hiaz...

wonder when will i get my answer from him... or is he hinting?? hehe.... nvm i will wait....

so i haf this prob wif lilin... not really prob lar... well u see... i kinda like her... LIKE her... nothing sexual or wat (me not turning straight) n well... was thinking of dating her... but then... so many things to think bout... n also, there is only one person in my mind these days... so it is like... ok.. nth btn me n lilin... but then... wondering... hehe...

i think there is no point in asking me out on saturdays nite liao... coz i won't b free.... hehe....

by the way.... vir went overseas.... muz pray for his safety... well... so many things to pray for... god's gonna b bz... hehe...

sun moon star
watchers of us
sent thy light
n heal all who ills
upon thy shine
cure our pains