okok.... posting for sat one......

well..... hiaz...... erm..... heeemmmm......

good day today..... but then..... well not so good i guess...... coz went to pick my grandpa up fm the hospital but he still not feelin so good so staying longer....... ok but then he complain of pain here n there n it hurts...... not only tt..... they(doc n mummy n aunt) suspect that the cancer cells may spread to the bones...... o man.... i hope not...... but if it has.................... =(

then went to see my grandma....... she is fine..... but sick..... hiaz.... haf not seen her so sick for such a long time...... o man....... =(

well then went to meet toshi n my dear son.... hahha so funny....... y?? donno.... guess more happy lar..... then alvin came along n b4 tt meet linus...... OMG HE IS DAMN CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D hahhaa.....
but promise myself not to b attached so can juz orgle..... =) hahahaa

these days been hafin the feelin to call him...... but don dare...... he nv calls me n i did not call him..... i don think he will ever call me...... hiaz...... ='( so nice if i can see him again but if i do, i will b happy then cry like no tml..... so to see or not to see???? hiaz.......

o guess u all may haf been wondering who HE is...... well guess u all know...... he is adrian..... hiaz...... wat to do.... alvin juz told me this..... tokin bout zuzu tellin me to let go of birds in a temper n i said i don think i can do it aft i brought the birds coz i will b too attached to it..... (i do....) then alvin reply tt sometimes it is better to release the bird..... it may b good for them...... ya i know.... but wat if it isn't??? n well wait makes u think that the birds wanna be released???? hiaz.... i think too much..... i know..... but then...... o there i go again......

tok to my mummy bout my cca today..... she is complaining bout cheerleading.... again..... well she said she don like it n it is for sissys blar blar blar....... told her this..... wat i like n wat u like is different and i am not goin to quit..... n she keep quiet..... so i won i think..... hahahaa.......

i was thinkin...... cancer is genetic...... will i get cancer????? if i do can i get it sometime soon??? so i can leave this world soon...... lol...... WJ's mom once told her tt i am someone who keeps thinkin os sucidial....... last time, laugh at it..... now..... think bout it...... i don wanna kill myself...... juz wanna die..... o n without injection...... kinda scare of needles...... lol...... dead bodies not scare...... needles .... scare like shit...... hahahahhahaa........