i am suffering from depression today and then i am closing all help..... y???? i donno.... i felt so lost... i felt so out of the world.... i realli think i suck big time n tt i am a joke.... i am a joke..... juz close all the avaliable contact to get me.... i donno wat will happen later..... i realli feel like dying..... can i ???? i think i can't.... i realli think so..... y can't we commit sucide??? it is getting better n better.... the though is ...... i donno..... i don feel like goin home.... i don feel like coming to sch.... but i am still in sch..... don feel like goin to church but still go.... i don feel like doin anything but still do...... i don wanna die....... but seems like the only way out..... y??? i wanna slp..... take a long slp....... i realli donno if i will or not kill myself...... i haf so many things to do but i don feel like doin..... i don wanna do anything but still haf so many things to do..... wat is there anything left 4 me??? i donno wat is goin on.... i donno wat i will b in the future.... i felt like all tt i am doin is juz ....... nth it is a joke....... joke...... i am the joke....... y haf everyone left me???? i let them go rite??? ya i did...... i did....... may b i juz wan sumone to b here 4 me...... but i knoe they can't........ mayb i juz needed sumone to believe in me..... but anyone can???? i realli donno.... it seems like it is over..... well anyone read this??? will anyone call me???? will anyone b worried for me???? will anyone miss me???? well i b juz a memory to them??? will they think of me??? will they know wat i haf done???? or is all tt i haf done nth???? haf i done anything??? i don think so.... well if i go, i will leave nth behind.... i don think u will read this... but u r the first one i realli loved... i still do...... but since u wanna stop i am fine wif it..... i do all tt u say..... i am willin to do anything tt u say..... i can do anything 4 u..... u affect me..... ur moods became my moods..... i donno now..... wat is this tt i am feeling...... wanna b wif u yet i can't coz i cannot let wat happened happen again... i can't afford to hurt u again.... i don wanna hurt u again...... i know i am not so stupid to kill myself...... but i realli donno...... this is juz how i feel....... is there anyone out there??????

I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
searching for a face
is there anybody here i know
cause nothings going right
and everythings a mess
and no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't someone please take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you

oh why is everything so confusing
maybe I'm just out of my mind
yea yea yea

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you

Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
but I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...